Ligea_Seroua wrote:
Zoonic wrote:
Ligea_Seroua wrote:
"Feel" that I look unattractive..yes, but that's the whole Body Dysmorphic Disorder thing.(Doesn't matter what you look like, gargoyle or supermodel, if you have BDD you will never be "perfect" enough) Thankfully, I can't afford the amounts of surgeries I would want, I guess that's probably a good thing.
I don't think I have a personality either...although that's not a problem in my opinion.
I thought I had BDD, I probably had, but my surgeries got rid of it.
I did have a couple of things done, which I don't have issues about anymore, but the focus shifts- on a weekly basis -as to what else "needs" fixing. I think because of Arts background (I was particularly good at life drawing and portraiture)I have an elevated awareness of imperfections. I can be similarly hyper aware of (sometimes minor) flaws in others, and find myself disappointed they seem unaware (particularly if they consider themselves very attractive).
I'm "ugly-pretty", more like a male Cher than a Brad Pitt, but that's what I was after anyway. I can never have a perfect face and that doesn't bother me, I just wanted slightly more exaggerated features in some ways. Most people find me attractive and eye catching but I'm definitely not perfectly symmetric. I'm fully aware of my imperfections but I accept them as a part of the overall picture. Most models are "ugly pretty" too, almost no one is perfectly symmetric.
What did you have done? I fixed my nose, made it bigger, my eyebrows and had my lips enlarged.
I had a flat and geometrical face with straight lines but a round head and convex forehead like a black person, and my inner vision of myself was always a more rich/full face even if not perfectly symmetric. I always wanted slightly more horse or monkey-like features. I can't explain why but I just always wanted this appearence, more like a dromedar or a lama but still in a "beautiful" way. I look a little like a monkey after my surgeries but I feel completely happy because it put the "energies right" and people find me attractive as well. I'm no Bride of Wildenstein that's for sure, I'm not out of touch with reality.