I can't even get rejected in this town.

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I'm not going to get defensive because she's not really anything to me as is, and I don't know myself to be all that good judge of character, but I haven't gotten the sociopath vibe from her. I kind of assumed she was too nice to not respond to someone who contacted her but then can't treat every person like her BFF and had to bail. She said almost as much about the first site she left. She also admitted to some social awkwardness so I don't think it's malicious. I'm sure at one time or another all of us here have been accused of being purposely mean when we're just inept. I wouldn't want to assume the same of someone else.

While on the subject, does anyone think I should mention this theory of mine when I contact her again in a few months? I'm referring to how I assumed she was too nice to not respond initially but couldn't keep up with everyone and doesn't want to "collect" friends (like on facebook etc.) that she doesn't actually plan to do anything with. I think it could have several positive effects. First, it lets her off the hook for losing contact before so she doesn't have to avoid me now because of any awkwardness. It might show I have some insight and maybe "get her" in a way which maybe not everyone does. Also that kind of puts me on "her side" i.e. I'm not judging her actions. Lastly it shows we have something in common other than just our interests. It shows we think the same. This is all assuming I'm right, and that it was mostly just that I just didn't set myself apart from others and she just gave up on the whole group of internet strangers she's encountered.

The important thing is to a write a message that I will be proud of. Like it was a creative project onto itself that I think is so well done that if someone didn't like it I would assume there would have to be something wrong with them and I wouldn't want anything to do with them. So it would not just be a test of if I can get her attention, but also if her attention is worth getting. It's the only way not to second guess everything I do and wonder what I should have done differently.

So, how do I set myself apart? I am funny, which will to some degree be clear. How do I make myself appear to be special enough to not be grouped in with the masses? It might be as simple as saying "I know everyone thinks there unique, but I actually am", and challenge her to prove me wrong, displaying a comical level of confidence. That kind of, lets call it boldness which I think is what you get when you mix desperation with confidence, might work in this kind of situation. If I had started with it, it might just scare her off and the research that website did seemed to indicate exactly that. I didn't have a bad interaction with her before, just not a memorable one. She seemed to give up on meeting people on the internet and I've given it time so now there's not as much demand for her attention.

Anyone have thoughts on this?

Unless you are a literary Proust or Rand, you will have a very difficult time convincing anyone you are unique. It's not a failing on you, it's a failure in society where the written word, and our committment (sp?) to such endeavors are lacking. So much easier to jot out an email or text message than sitting down and having to pay the equivilient of $5 a letter.

So, unique ("Unique just like everyone else") is now more easily identified through time and achievement. No, you do not need to win a million dollars, but standing on principles, manners, and being consistent -- all features currently lacking, will set you apart.

Be yourself. Introspection and curiosity are two of the first hallmarks of being different. Since you're here and you're posting, you're following through on those.

Now, the problem will arise - how come she doesn't recognize me for being unique? Recognize that talent (e.g. artistry and genius) generally takes time to recognize, and even the most astute (e.g. art critics) don't recognize it, so the failure is not necessarily yours.

Ultimately, be yourself. Ask questions, find ways to make yourself better but temper it with knowing not everyone will be able to recognize your values nor you for what they're worth.

Such is the world we currently inhabit.

And if you aren't unique... get in line for blaming the other person to assuage your hurt feelings.

I may not be a Proust or Rand, but I might be somewhat a Jon Stewart or Joel McHale. Writer, I don't know, comedian maybe, and she has said she's interested in comedians.
Oh, don't worry I plan to be more myself than ever before.
At least that's the plan. I thought before that I should write most of the message ahead of time while I was enthusiastic enough to think it might work and focused enough on it that I thought it would be my best possible effort thus leaving me with no regrets afterwards.
I should have done that, because now I'm distracted. I saw a TV show I hadn't before and I loved it so much I don't think about much else. It just plain makes me feel happy just knowing it exists. Recently I've been thinking about what I'd do if I wrote an episode, but writing fan fiction seems too small (anyone/everyone can do that) and writing a script and submitting it is too big (only writers guild members can do that which I'm not), but that's another story. So now I'm worried the message will not be my best work. On the plus side she has herself written fan fiction so that's something we'd now have in common.
There's not much to be done about that. Just another example of by brain screwing me up at the wrong time.