The OP should be able to share his dream without someone coming on and calling him names. There is nothing "girly" about wanting genuine friendship and intimacy with someone else. There's something rather sad about men paying women for empty sex, and thinking they've got something valuable out of it. Sex is sex... often over rated. Love isn't a fairy tale, and it lasts a lot longer than sex does. The "twilight" saga isn't about love anyway, it's about an abusive passive aggressive relationship between a much older man and a teenage girl... in other words it's paedophilia dressed up as something else. There's a world of difference between that and what the OP is describing.