techstepgenr8tion wrote:
hyperlexian wrote:
on the part about the huge wall of sound, sometimes i feel that the world is literally rushing and moving and speaking and flowing and changing all around me, and my instinct is to be quiet and still and unmoving and isolated and tamped-down. this will sound silly, but i sometimes feel like an Ent that has to be aroused out of a stupor. i am aware of my surroundings, but i have a distance from the goings-on. sort of like i am a part of the world but distinct from it.
i feel it very strongly at those times that i am in an intensely social or loud environment. people worry i am not having fun but i can't be outgoing and fully 'me' when i am trapped inside myself by the noise and the people on the outside.
Sounds like its sound for you more often? For me its visual stimuli, I think that may combine with sound but the net effect is that I have 'what I absolutely need to see and process' and then 'everything else', 'everything else' involves a lot of also rather important things or things that any normal person who's not under a lot of mental strain will stop and look at or observe, examine, whereas my own mind feels like its embattled to maintain consciousness (I've never passed out from it but I've had plenty of times where I was stretched thin enough to where it wouldn't have surprised me).
i think you are right. it didn't occur to me that it is sound-related, but i think it is. interesting that you feel that way about visual stimuli. i think it is easier to escape sound, because visual stuff is always there - you can't really 'tune it out'. fascinating.
honestly, about the more physical stuff... if you feel 'not right' or 'abnormal' - a second or third or tenth medical opinion may be in order.
this is not quite like your situation, but is an example of trusting your own feelings: for years, my daughter was always exhausted. she seemed lazy and couldn't stand for long periods of time without getting dizzy. she was always run down, and would sleep for 13 hours a night and not feel well-rested. seems typical for a 16-year-old, but she persisted and found out that she has both (borderline) low blood pressure and vitamin B12 amenia. before she got that particular doctor to listen, people seriously rolled their eyes when she described her symptoms, but she knew something was wrong.
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