Teredia wrote:
Idiot me went and did it again. Went and fell in love on line with an aspie....
At first it was cool, we got on great. but i developed feelings, he rejected me, that was cool. how could it work anyways i must have been kidding myself... But i found myself feeling love for him.
Not Limerence, actual love, which is so rare for me.
Anyways we got into a massive arguement..... Even though im really hurt both mentally and emotionally from the ordeal. I forgot how bad it can be to be on the wrong side of an angry aspergers male.... I got burnt. Hes convinced ill hate him but i cant convince him i will never hate him...
Im raised soo differently....
And He's prolly going to read this and hate me more...
Then why am I posting? IDK
I know i can never get him to love me, so i wont force him, all i can do is do what i know best and continue to show him my kind endearing heart. even though its beyond repair and its endurance is at the state at the thought of trying to talk to him now makes me want to throw up.
But I love him... Im going to endure this, take it as it comes and show this highly f**** up world that im here to face it head on!!
All i have to prove is that im here and im not going anywhere YOU HEAR THAT WORLD!! ! IM NOT GOING ANYWHERE!! !
You go, girl. Be the hero for all girls and keep enabling his attitude with you. Don't ever set boundaries because they're just an obstacle.