goofygoobers wrote:
I've struggled with my self-esteem for years. I still feel unattractive regardless of what people think. I used to be bullied in school about my looks and my abusive stepmother told me I was ugly. Old women and girls tell me I'm beautiful, but I disagree. All I see are my physical flaws.
Minus the stepmother, that's my experience in a nutshell. I am told all the time by older women who lucky my wife must be to have such an incredibly handsome man. I always have to embarrassingly tell them I have been single almost my entire life and have tried for years to find someone to no avail to which the reaction is always shock.
When I was in school, even the horrendously ugly and obese kids would mock my appearance and my thin build. They would also mercilessly tease me for the acne even though they had it to. I now realize they are only projecting their own insecurities but it was hard not to internalize it. I have been told I am an "8" by unbiased sources and someone who posted here had a husband who looks almost identical to me was rated 9.1 on Hot or Not. I've also been told I am incredibly ugly so I don't know who to believe some days.