Had to look up the person you mentioned, I did not know that was, although I am not hip on pop culture.
It does not sound like pride to me but anger and frustration about what has happened in your world of dating and romance. Not knowing what you look like or how you behave but just going on what you posted sounds like you may be setting your standards a tad high.
Not uncommon people do that so as to not have a relationship, I have seen that with some of my wife's female friends.
For me a 'dream girl' is just that, a dream. The real person is far messier and more difficult than the dream.
BTW-you may not want to say that the girls that you dated were 'ret*d', it is prejoritve and will take away from the message that you are trying convey. Unless you are trying to come across as a mean jerk.