How do you know if you're ready for a relationship?

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If you can learn to compromise,
if you can learn to care about someone else in addition to yourself,
if you can learn to be willing to learn and improve,
if you can clean your damn room up without your parents/roommate yelling at your asss,
if you are willing to get out and do activities together,
if you can learn to not stay in your room all day and jack off to random femalez,
if you are willing to get out of your comfort zone and meet people
if you are willing to listen to their problems instead of ignoring them because you think they're stupid af. (even if they are)

The problem is that unless you are lucky you need tremendous amounts of social training before even being able to attract someone, no matter if you are a ready or not for a relationship. By that time people in your age range already lost their innocence and have much experience behind them. There is a power dynamic at play here that makes you vulnerable to abuse ( with autism that is already a risk factor ) and chances are low you will have a normal relationship. My friend, who also had autism, fell in love with a girl and eventually went through a bad break up. He committed suicide a day later. You will have to go through much pain to even be able to have a normal relationship, there is no natural growth. So be prepared to go through depression and lows you wouldn't think were possible.

Autism is always being behind the curve. It is always missing out. It is playing catch up all your life and losing out on genuine experiences. It is a big source of depression for many of us. For people with autism being able to find someone that understands you is a life work and many die alone. For me I can attest it is much harder than the PhD in physics I am doing. At least with that when I work hard, be smart and be a good person I am rewarded. With love no matter how much I try I feel like I am butting my head against the wall and slowly going insane. No matter how hard I try, how much I improve myself and how much I open up it always ends bad one way or the other. When it ends you have to start all the way over again and reset your emotions like a robot. At some point it is too much. Every bad experience feels worse than the last and I'm slowly losing purpose in my life. It is those moments you start contemplating suicide because that is what I would rather do than go through the pain of loneliness for another decade. I often wonder if I should have started dating at all because it is having a serious negative impact on my mental health. Maybe I should have just accepted that I have autism and that I am destined to be alone.

I have been ready for a relationship for over 10 years but have never had a serious one. The most serious one was ultimately completely one-sided because I completely opened up to this girl but she didn't tell me she had a boyfriend until I already told her my feelings. It always seems to be the same. They already have a boyfriend, they flunk out last moment, they lead me on as their emotional tampon or they simply stop putting in any effort to develop our relationship after a while. I am a person who doesn't even care that much about looks if people think I am high standard. I am simply looking for someone who understands me and also wants a serious relationship, but that seems to be a very daunting task. To this day I still pray for a miracle.