Is it worth it?

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Eh, join the club. If I'm interested I just lock up. If I'm not, it can be fun to watch interactions. It is weird, I've been watching them enough that I feel like I think I have just the slightest clue as to what's going on, but having some idea as to how things might work and applying it seem to be a bit different. That whole "book smarts" BS that I always hated. I hated learning facts without application throughout my college career, but that seems to be all I've managed in terms of people. Even then, not all that much!

Hah, alcohol seems to "help," but help is pretty subjective.

Yeah. I screwed up last week, and didn't find out
until this one. My little obsession reacted poorly
to my unintentional snub.

All the while, I can get just about anywhere
with anyone I'm not interested in. I played
this out with a couple, just to see if it was
the case, and indeed.

That's one of the things I've finally learned (even if I still can't "use" it.) Act indifferent, your chances increase greatly. I completely missed that one girl was interested in my last semester here. Felt like trying to shove my foot so far down my throat that I was sucking on my ankle. After enough times of doing it (after getting shot down by someone else, and being told it numerous times,) I've realized that if you give no indication that you're concerned with someone else's opinion of you, their opinion will be higher.

Thanks, alcohol, for making me realize that this is that whole silly "confidence" thing people talk about.

Regardless, it would be nice if I were able to notice this kind of thing "in the moment," rather than a couple days, weeks, or months later.

I'm having the opposite. Ah, the indifference
(which is bloody natural) probably helped draw
her to me, but it also made me drive her to tears
(at least in my half-delusional state, this is what
I saw), and she showed up with some guy. Makes
things trickier. I even KNEW that it was a problem,
and that she needed some reassurance that I was
indeed interested.

Lack of indifference though, seems to work fine. I just
can't summon the courage to be glib (though it is some
thing of an act) with someone I'm interested in.

But which indifference is the issue. The real one, or the
one from fear?