MrSinister wrote:
I have a peculiar approach to sex at the moment - apparently I want to engage in it on a conceptual level, but the idea of actually getting that close fills me with a deep-seated dread/disgust/fear/whatever.
Me too, I get interested and aroused with a few sexual things, not always.
I watched porn a lot before, I am very picky about it, lots of them turn me off actually. Anyway, I always had this ideal in my mind, to be with a woman in a relationship, to love each other, and finally the sex thing will come as a last or ultimate step, it has been a very nice fantasy to me, yep fantasy, because in reality it will never happen. So I dont have to worry anymore in thinking how it would be the day it will come.
If it could be possible that one day I may have to be intimitate, I probably would freak out, I dont know if I will be disgust, but definitily I will have a lot of fear, and I just will screw tihngs up, and that without to mention of lacking of motor skills to do the performance properly. It will be so frustrating, that I think I am better in the way I am right now. Besides a romantic relationship is not for me, my partner would be like a mother to me, and I would be like her child, no woman would accept that, and I would feel bad for that too. I am doomed.
05 Jun 2007, 6:30 pm
