Something else just came to my mind, a lot more recent. Just a couple of years ago, at the Baptist Student Union, we were doing some campus cleaning, and we did that in groups, I was going to be by myself, as always; but some girl went out of her way to join me instead of being with her friends, and it was me and her, just the two of us, going around campus and talking. I was complaining to her about others at the Baptist Student Union not talking to me. She invited me to come to Church of Christ (she herself is Baptist but she attends Church of Christ from time to time) and I told her I already been going there the past year and gave up since people don't talk to me there. She suggested I come back and that she will talk to me. And I said "but I am not there any more". What the heck?! I should have totally came back! I have no idea what stopped me from doing that! But now it *is* too late: I am no longer in that state any more. She is still in my facebook contacts, and I sent her a message that I feel bad that I didn't do as she suggested. Well, she just gave me an advice on how to talk to people at the churches where I am right now. But she can't really do much over distance, can she? So yeah, I feel bad I didn't listen to her.
But then again, I doubt she wanted to date me, she just wanted to be friends out of pity, but I will take a pity friend its better than nothing -- unless of course we have the LJBF conversation THEN it would be too awkward. But I didn't ask her out, so I didn't give her a chance to actually LJBF me. So yeah, I would have liked her friendship. In fact, I was hoping for her to talk to me some more *at the Baptist Student Union*. So how stupid I must have been to not even consider going to the Church of Christ where she goes to more regularly?
In any case, while she was probably just a pity-friend, I think the other girls I talked about in the original post actually wanted to date me. I am just assuming thats the case because in both cases I am talking about the girls in their early 20-s, well 15 years ago I was in the early 20-s too, so we were same age, and two years ago that wasn't the case any more. Plus, the girls 15 years ago weren't feeling sorry for me, the girl 2 years ago probably was. But in any case, I think I was stupid both times.
27 Jun 2018, 9:53 pm
