i was in grade 4 when i had my first crush, so i was probably 8-9 y/o. in grade 4, we had a split class where half the class was grade 4 and the other half was grade 5. i had a crush on one of the grade 5 kids. i can still remember his name and what he looked like. he was the popular, athletic, funny type, though was a little bit rebellious due to overconfidence. whenever i talk about him with people, i joke about having used to be into slightly bad boys.
anyways though, i thought he was completely out of my league. back then i was obese, nerdy, a teacher's pet, and most of all — awkward as hell. i remember this one conversation i had with him where i was trying to make him laugh by pointing out how the word ' beach ' sounds like the swear word ' b _ _ _ _, ' proceeding to even emphasize the sound in some clownish way. he seemed to find it funny and chuckled but thinking back on it, i really don't know if he was laughing more out of being nervous and uncomfortable or actually being amused.
but yeah, since he was popular ( not only in our class, but in our school ), there were obviously other people who had a crush on him. there was one girl in particular in my class that was also a grade 5 student who, i can't remember how, but somehow figured out that i liked that boy. what i do remember though is that the girl started asking me a bunch of questions like ' why do you like him ' and things like that. when i couldn't give a strong enough answer — at least in her eyes — she advised that i try to forget about him and at the time, i thought she was being nice for looking out for me like that. however, i later learned that she also had a crush on him, which made me wonder if she had done that on purpose to try and sabotage me. shrugs.