Do you *hate* infatuation euphoria?

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I think a large part of it is due to the fact I try and keep my personal appearance up because I figure it will make this sort of thing easier. I do not understand other aspies that are looking for relationships but are overweight or dress them selfs strangly.
At the time when this happened I used to run 3 miles a day and used to do weights all the time. Not to try and become to muclely but just to the point that I saw NT girls looking at in magazines.
I also wear the same kind of cloths that I see other NT males wearing.

Sorry if that sounds werid its just the way I looked at achiveing something and in away it worked how I intended. Just now I still need try and figure out how to get over my shyness which is my current work in progress but this will probably take some time to achieve. But I believe I will be able to figure out tools and skills to get over it. It will just take time. Hopefully by the time im 20 i won't be so shy.

I actually had an interesting experience similar to this. I was once at Woolworths with my aunt (who's only 10 years older) and we were at the checkout. I noticed the girl at the counter was stealing quick looks at me, but I thought she was looking fairly low, perhaps my shirt. Being the fashionably ret*d dresser that I am, I thought she was looking at my shirt, probably finding my clashing colours and style or whatever to be stupid.... and that she was keeping her head down so that she wouldn't let out a laugh or big smile.

I actually felt quite invaded at the time, everytime she looked at me, I felt my world collapsing on my shoulders, constricting me. Add to that, was the thought that she seemed to be laughing at my clothes, I felt really small and vulnerable. I was almost thinking like Haley Joel Osment was saying to his teacher in The Sixth Sense... 'Stop looking at me!!' The 'Stuttering Stanley' scene, for those who remember it.

Anyway, when my aunt and I left the checkout, about 10 steps away she told me, 'You DO know that girl was checking you out, right? You know how many times she was looking at you?'

I don't remember what she looks like now, but I do remember thinking she was attractive, and I remember thinking right after my aunt told me, that I went 'Dang! Coulda been something!'

But I still laugh at the irony... The checkout chick was checking me out.

And MindOfOrderedChaos, I so envy that moment of your life. I'd probably do the same thing and flee, but I would still like to have a girl show interest in me like that. Of course, I wouldn't realise her intentions until after the fact, but for a woman to take that first step to create an introduction (when conventionally, the man would, meaning she's stepping outside of her comfort zone to meet you), it really would be a booster for me, I think... I'll probably never know since the odds of it happening are pretty low...

What really sucks about writing this, is that I have the movie Before Sunrise playing in the background... what are the odds?

I've been asked out by girls 7 times in the last 2 years. I have screwed up 2 of the times baddly because well you heard one of the storys. One of the times I was afraid that they would run once they really got to know me. Another of the 2 times I think I was have some sort of depression break down and was strangly beond the point where girls could cheer me up. That Idea that I was beond that point still seems werid to me but oh well. And two of them well.....

Damn looking back I've screwed up things more than I realised and I had forgot about those things until now. I hope I havn't screwed up all my chances and that in the future I wont.

Ok now Im really annoyed that I have screwed up so much and not even realised it.

girls actually asked you flat out ('Let's go on a date' kind of thing) 7 times??

christ, man. that is impressive.