danlo wrote:
Everything about people is disgusting.
Agree & if that was all I felt, no problem. The conflict is that I also have the "urge to merge". So I have extreme revulsion towards & yet strong interest in certain biological/physical stuff.
Seeing others kissing is icky, but I don't begrudge others their happyfun-unless I'm alone & resentfully bitter. People look silly doing most things, to themselves or to each other-I'm no exception. One starts out w/eyes closed, eventually one gets familiar enough w/other person to perhaps look at same time as kissing. Easier to pay attention to sensation if one isn't distracted by visuals, though.
How kissing feels-well, it ranges from terrible to pretty nifty. Wet wobbly-lipped wide-open kisses are gross. Tongue-involvement can take some getting-used to, or may never become appealing. Does depend a lot on who one is kissing, how one feels at that particular moment, all those vague variables.
Despised kissing family members/being kissed by them (not in my life now so no longer an issue). As an adult in relationships, I prefer face-on-face contact instead of the focussed mouth-to-mouth encounter.
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