It's warm down here
But I am cold
My mind is so young
My mind is so old
Between the fabrics
Of space and time
Sits an emotion creating
This paradox rhyme
An unknown feeling
With no identity
An irrational variable
An unknown entity
It's what makes me warm
But at the same time cold
It has no name
But its name is not untold
What is it? I cannot find
Its identity in my mind
I've never felt so warm or so cold
So young or so old
Am I melting? Am I frozen?
What is this feeling? How is it chosen?
Where is the place
That this feeling was born?
Was it out in space?
And why am I torn
To little pieces by it
With my soul torn out
Rather than left alone?
It makes me want to shout
I don't cry much
But inside I cry all day
Screaming hellishly
But no pain goes away
I can't take it anymore
It feels so bad
I see dead bodies
Am I going mad?
What is this emotion? It is nothing.
Am I melting? No.
Am I freezing? No.
Am I going mad? No.
It was love, but now it's gone forever.
I was melting, but I'm already melted.
I was freezing, but I'm frozen.
I was going mad, but... Now, I am mad...
And I'm right behind you...
Also:
It doesn't matter
How many friends I have
How many people I know
I will always be lonely
It doesn't matter
How many people like me
How much love I have
I will never feel liked
It doesn't matter
Who my friends are
Who my enemies are
I will never fit in
It doesn't matter
What I partake in
How I partake in it
I will always feel left out
It doesn't matter
What's important to me
What I could be
I will never care
It doesn't matter
What I own
What I love
I will always have a longing
In my mind
I am nothing
I exist only in the life of others
Lacking prescence in my own
My sadness leads to happiness
My happiness leads to sadness
What's wrong with me?
What was I, am I, and will I be?
There are two ways that this can end
Two sides of the tunnel
No ways to defend
One is the beginning
And one is not
I rest here in this cave
It is molten and hot
I contemplate which way
That I should go
I look either way
I tell myself "no."
Both sides of the tunnel
Have a rockslide of pain
And here I am
Fear makes a chain
To hold me back
There is one side of the tunnel
With sand and mud
I could climb here
And drown
In an ocean of blood
The other side has
A beautiful sky
But if I fall
I shall immediately die
So here I sit
And here I stay
As long as I'm here
I am cemented by the clay
That shapes destiny
As long as I sit
In this tunnel of my life
I am doomed to die
By age or by knife
As I sit here in this cave
I wonder
And I think up a theory
I am a victim
And victims must be rescued, right?
If my heart is frozen solid
You have a lighter
If my heart is an ancient artifact
You have a shovel
Yet you just sit there
With your lighter and shovel
Totally unaware
That it is my heart
In that ice block
Freezing to death
That it is my heart
Under that dirt pile
Suffocating
And you leave it to die
And so my dead heart remains
Admiring you from afar
As you leave for a new place
A place that I can never go
As you obtain new heights
Heights I can never reach
My soul is with you
And when you leave
So does my soul
And I remain silent
Waiting for you
And you remain silent
Totally unaware
And I experience the pain
Without objection
As you tear my soul away
I submit no protection
You think it's a game
Well, then, I have lost
You barely know
Who I am
And it's all my fault
Fear comes with a cost.
Both are by me. Yeah, I suck ^^''
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