I miss my boyfriend.
I am Italian and he is American.
He is Asperger, I could be (I am waiting a diagnosis)
At the moment we are in a long distance relationship, because we need to handle and fix some issues to be able to stay togheter.
I have left him a month ago after 3 months together and I think that I haven't passed a day without crying since then (and this is from a person who hasn't cried in years before).
I miss him every second. We talk by telephone and skype, but we have different timelines and lives and it is everyday more difficult to find the time for our long discussions about everything. Moreover we are so sad and without energies that it is painful sometimes.
Today is one of those days. I miss him like crazy, but there is nothing I can do at the moment.
I miss his smile, his eyes, his childish laugh, his enthusiasm, his intelligence, his warm heart, his obsessive interests, his crazy and out of the box ideas, his jokes, his breath next to me when he falls asleep.
I have never loved anybody else like this in my life and I am so afraid to lose him and so angry that it is so difficult to stay together...
Sorry, I am just ranting, my second post here and I am already having a meltdown