Richardf269 wrote:
I kinda know how you feel. Except I'm the one who's in love with a woman from 13 years ago and I never could let her go. I don't know if I can either. I thought we had an online relationship & I thought she was in love with me back then, but she (unintentionally mind you) busted my huge ego balloon and told me the exact opposite. I honestly just don't know how to feel these days. Most times I just feel empty inside right now, or really sad.
It's very hard to get over what might have been. I had a similar experience before and didn't learn! My problem is that I am very defensive when getting to know someone and instead of discussing what's happening, I seem to try to keep aloof - which must be ridiculously confusing for the other person!
Anyway, I was getting to know this guy and really liked him but now he's vanished so I have to pick up and get back on my feet and get back to living a life. But it's harder this time.. I guess I had more invested as I've been alone for a long long time.
But I do know that it gets better eventually - or at least it gets different
I wish I still had some sense of adventure or at least belief that the future will bring something good!