Do you miss someone right now?

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I miss Schmoo.

Yeah. I miss one of my best friends - she moved away awhile ago, and I haven't seen her face to face in five years. Still, she's coming out to visit and stay with me for about a week later on in the month, so I'm excited (and kind of nervous) about that.

I don't miss anyone right now.

I miss someone, and wonder why he's not online.

Yeah I am, real bad too (in a good way); I hope the environment is less overwhelming for her as the decades move on.

An ex gf of mine.

We were together for a lot of the spring. I had never felt so wonderful and in love. We could almost read each others minds and finish each others sentences. She told me I was her soul mate.

Then she had a nervous breakdown over school and the death of a friend and said she couldnt handle a relationship at the time and wanted to try again in the fall. I took that as a way of trying to soften the blow.

So we were friends after that and sometimes it was ok and then it just got weird....so we still had these concert tickets to see VNV Nation together. I had this elaborate romantic plan in mind to get her back when they played "Beloved" but at this point things were so off with her that I decided not to. I was thinking that would be the last time we would ever have to spend together and I was happy about that. The show was awesome and she was way chattier on the drive home and we never had awkwardness after that.

So we say a rather brief goodbye at the end of the year. I start seeing someone else (which went nowhere for unrelated reasons) and she says she wasnt kidding when she said she wanted to try again. She says at VNV Nation she had also wanted to make a move and kiss me but when she turned around at the end of "Beloved" that I had been moved away from her in the crowd and the moment was gone after that.

We talk about what to do differently, we flip flop on each other all the time. Finally I snap and say that Im tired of her instability....I wasnt asking for a commitment but she was messing with me a lot. I apologize a week later and say its no use discussing it since we are so far away and we should just wait until school starts.

Then I discover that Im an Aspie. As soon as I start telling her she gets really upset because she has babysat aspie kids and knows what Im about to say: We cant work because I will never be able to understand her extreme (probably cyclothimic) complex changing emotional states and will not always be able to empathize when she needs it. She is in tears saying how it breaks her heart that I will never be able to see the emotional change in my own eyes.

I haven't seen her since school finished....I just want to kiss her and hold her and love her one last time....

I miss my Rachel, it feels horrible when were not near eachother. I love her so much.

I miss my GF, who's still in San Fransisco & won't be returning to Oregon until mid-August.
I love her like a fellow activist for human rights should.

Still...everyday I miss my ex. How long has it been?

"Haunted" by Trigger 11

It started with a glance
In a mirror facing rear
Not quite in shining armor
Your knight had appeared

Our next encounter
I knew that it was true
But I was too shy and scared
To open up to you

A few months having passed
My mind was so confused
My best friend was my obsession
I could not risk to lose

Consumed by my thoughts
And completely unaware
Expecting a different answer
You told me how you cared

Always there to catch me
Made falling effortless
I was such a fool
For delaying our first kiss

Words unnecessary
Even cumbersome
A simple glance or smile
Was enough to show our love

You gave me the world
I kept it near my heart
A constant reminder
I thought we’d never part

<CHORUS>
Trapped within my thoughts
How could I have known?
I’m unable to forget
And unwilling to let go

They sang ‘Nothing Lasts Forever…’
Foretelling of things to come
Our song a sample of the future
My future life alone

On a slow motion crash
Time had passed us by
As I denied my fate
And continued with the lie

If love is not enough
Then what more could I do?
I gave all that I had
Exposed my heart to you

Chasing away my dreams
Haunting memories I can’t shake
Their reminders of my failures
The pain inflicted in my wake

Not aware when I was with you
How my mind truly worked
A misguided Aspie, lost
On the Wrong Planet, not a heartless jerk

Now so long ago
We went our separate ways
Yet that final glance
Still seems like yesterday

<CHORUS>

Now so long ago
We went our separate ways
Yet that final glance
Still seems like yesterday

“Streets In The Rain” by The Samples

I'm looking for people
That I used to know
And I'm looking for places
We used to go

I promise the changes
Will never change me
No matter how distant
We seemed to be
We used to be children
And I'd never forget
When we played in our circles
But that game's not over yet

The neons too bright
The world's too fast
The cities at night
And the stores behind glass
The streets in the rain
And the field back home
They're never the same
So now I'm alone

I'm looking for people
That I used to know
And I'm looking for places
We used to go
We used to go
We used to go
We used to go
So long ago
So long ago

I miss the man I love. Even though things will never be like in my heart I really want, I still feel I am strong enough to have him as a close friend. Unfortuantly he hardly contacts me anymore. It makes me feel really bad but I have to respect his choice.

There's still a one man fan club for you in Haywards Heath, Grim!

I'm sorry things haven't worked out as you had hoped.

Well, not till you mentioned it...

There were some people from school that I wished I'd kept in touch with. Quite a few people. The people I never really hung out with but you might share a joke, or a comment, or we'd compliment each other's essay or art project or whatever. The people I didn't approach because I didn't know how, and because I hung out with my friends' friends - some of whom I didn't even like.

Sometimes I think I miss my father, who died when I was young, but he had substance abuse issues, and was a difficult personality, so maybe I just miss the idea.

"Shellshock" by New Order

That's the way - shellshock
Hold on! It's never enough
It's never enough until your heart stops beating
The deeper you get, the sweeter the pain
Don't give up the game until your heart stops beating

You call me on the phone, you left me all alone
All I get from you is shellshock
Another day goes by and all I do is cry
All I get from you is shellshock
I'd tell the world and save my soul
But rain falls down and I feel cold
A cold that sleeps within my heart
It tears the earth and sun apart
But that's the way that I can win
A victim of your evil sin
You've lost the hold youve had on me
By causing the changes that you've never see
Hold on! It's never enough
It's never enough until your heart stops beating
The deeper you get, the sweeter the pain
Don't give up the game until your heart stops beating

When we walk through open doorways,
Counting time in one or more ways
We can't find our peace of mind
And life becomes a life of crime
And that's the day I call your name
I came to you, I called in vain
You lost the faith within your heart
The fire in your soul from the end to the start
Hold on! It's never enough
It's never enough until your heart stops beating
The deeper you get, the sweeter the pain
Don't give up the game until your heart stops beating

I've been good and I've been bad
But common sense I've never had
No matter how I try and try,
I hide the truth behind a lie
But that's the way that I can win
A victim of your evil sin
You lost the faith within your heart
The fire in your soul from the end to the start
Hold on! It's never enough
It's never enough until your heart stops beating
The deeper you get, the sweeter the pain
Don't give up the game until your heart stops beating

I miss having someone I can completely open up to, that I can talk to about anything.