ToadOfSteel wrote:
Oh, sorry to hear that... is it just driving on them or merely being in a car on a highway?
Both - though for me, the actual driving's far scarier. It's tough to explain, but I think it's mainly due to my anxiety disorder, and may have something to do with a sensory processing problem. I don't like speed; it gives me a "rush" of fear that often triggers panic attacks. Because of the way my dad drives, for example, whenever I'm in the car with him on a highway, I have to employ a lot of self-talk to keep from panicking.
When I'm behind the wheel, I'm extremely conscientious, but there's so much information to have to process simultaneously that it's overwhelming. I think the fear of highways stems from the fact that one must be able to control a car successfully at high speeds, *plus* be able to change lanes quickly, which is something I don't think that I'm currently equipped to do. Also, if I were unable to stop a full-blown panic attack in its tracks whilst on a highway, I feel like it'd be hard for me to get to the shoulder safely. On back roads, I can pull over immediately, if need be.
Driving exhausts me, and leaves me shaky - even if I'm just going to and from work (about a 10-min. drive each way). It's pathetic that something so seemingly-innocuous makes me so afraid. It makes me angry at myself.
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