G4m3r5h4n3 wrote:
lasersandlasers wrote:
I've only ever had one relationship, and that's how it started for me, as well. The girl met me and we started hanging out often and coming over to my dorm to watch stuff on Youtube, and then one night she came over and we were hanging out, and erm...yeah. On her end, things were a long time coming, apparently. On my end, it was completely out of left field. It ended the same way, which kind of stuck with me for a long time.
It drives me insane how I'm just stuck, unable to do anything. If I find that I like someone, it's impossible for me to do something about it, and if anyone has ever liked me, I'll never know, so the only way it ever works is the one in a million chance that someone decides to just be totally up front and explain it to me.
I find it easier to approach women about those personal things when it is just the two of us, sometimes I would plan ahead what I was going to say which helps.
I mean, I know that it's easier to talk to a person one on one, and I usually have to plan out what I'm going to say in conversations with people anyway. I just can't clear the hurdle of talking about that kind of stuff with people. There's a girl that I've been interested in for 6 years straight, and I've been alone with her tons of times, because we've become really good friends. I can't get over the hump of talking about anything that could potentially jeopardize our friendship. I don't feel like I'll ever be able to tell her, so I eventually gave up, but it's never really gotten any easier to move on. It's irritating, because my mind won't let me stop wanting to be with her romantically, even when I've decided to quit pining since talking about that kind of stuff is impossible for me. It's possibly the biggest solid chunk of social anxiety that I have, and I have a LOT of social anxiety issues.
tl;dr: I like someone really, really, really strongly, and I'm never going to be able to articulate it, so I decided to give up, but my brain won't let me.
08 May 2013, 6:25 am
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