It’s driving me crazy...

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^She reached by texting me via her country's phone number, which wasn't blocked, she asked to see me this Saturday evening, I said i ll think about it - personally I am now curious what more she has to tell me, but I made it clear that I will never forgive her even if I accept that, she said she is not expecting that.

You don't have to.
I didn't talk with my ex after the breakup and it was good, because with time I was able to see how she had manipulated me and from her actions towards me I was able to infer that she did not value me a lot, and no matter what could have been said there, at best it would not have benefitted me and at worst I could have been severely hurt or used. The relationship was hurting me, no matter what. Today I'm happy with that choice.

As far as I can tell, your ex's actions speak for themselves, because she cheated on you when you were in a relationship that was monogamous by mutual agreement (?).

She is manipulating you with words like "Let's be friends please, if you really love me [THEN] please accept that"... this is a text book manipulation tactic.

Is this what you want in a friend or lover?
Her behavior shows to me that she doesn't respect you, doesn't matter how many times she says that she loves you or how sorry she is. She has betrayed your trust in a calculated way.
What do you even want to do with her? She's not
your lover, and she isn't your friend. You don't owe her anything.
Why should you listen to her after she has discarded you?
Unless you like to be used you're better off without her. No need to talk, the damage has already been done.

You probably need some time to let the reality of the situation sink in.
I think it's probably better to wait a good while rather than talking too soon, so you can make up your own mind to decide how you want to deal with it, because these kinds of realizations don't usually happen over night.

Make time for yourself Boo, a breakup hurts.
Don't let your feelings cloud your judgment when you are at your most vulnerable.

I wouldn't talk to her, man. She's put you through enough and this is just her way of trying to rationalise her decision and make you okay with it, because you're hurting from it and she feels guilty. And she should, what she did was incredibly low.

Take time out to appreciate yourself and lick your wounds.
She wasn't the one. Just be glad you had fun on the way to the right person.

EDIT: Reworded for clarity.

I am very sorry.

There's nothing wrong with you. She is the problem, not you. If she's not offering you a reasonable explanation, there's a good chance she did screw things up in epic proportions and you won't want to know what that was anyway. Don't get involved in her problems. Even if that's not the case, her sudden "disappearance" tells enough. You are better off without her. I know it's easier said than done but don't think about her any more, focus on yourself now.

I am not sure anymore if it was a genuine love in the first place, I was probably just a potential tool.
No, probably what I thought to be the biggest love of my life turned out to be the biggest lie I ever lived.

I'm sorry this happened to you, Boo. I read this thread in chronological order so before I even saw your posts about her cheating on you or at least leaving you for someone else, based on what you'd originally written I thought to myself that she was probably cheating on you or leaving you for someone else. The "working all of the time" and the "I don't love you anymore" were the two warning signs in my mind.

It would be hard for me to remain friends with someone who left me for another and hurt me that way. There would have to be some stronger bonds or other circumstances (child involved, many years in the relationship) or something for me to consider that.

I disagree that she never loved you. It's possible that she genuinely did but then things changed in her mind for whatever reason/s?

I've had this sort of thing happen to me numberless time.

I have felt the way you feel, Boo.

It hurts. It's a pain in the mind.

I'm not going to tell you to "snap out of it."

But you will "snap out of it," eventually.

And you will find another woman. Preferably, one who is Lebanese. But even if she isn't, it might still work out.

Most Lebanese women never found me attractive, I am sure of this... based on plenty of years of trying and observing.

Anyway, dating again is not on my mind now. A “replacement” date won’t cure me now.

I am not sure anymore.

For what I know, no human being who’s supposedly madly in love, would suddenly stop loving their SO just after a week, so most likely a lot of the “I love you” lately weren’t genuine. Hell knows since how long.

I've had a few people be "madly in love with me" one day----then change their mind the next day.

The body can do funny things to the mind for that day----but then the mind "takes over" the next day.

I think everyone experiences love differently and some people don't even know what love is ( I'd have a hard time explaining it possibly due to my Alexthymia ).

Maybe it was lust not love.

Looking back, our thing started as friends with benefits then things progressed.

^ With acting skills like that , he should play professional football

^ I was probably in relationship with the female version of Neymar.
For almost 2 years....