My problem with relationships and age

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Well, I just graduated.

Where do I go? What is the process for getting there? What do I need to afford to relocate?

I have a lot of questions, and a lot of anxiety about this matter.




No women are interested in relationships with me.



Its a good point. But where is the line between reasonable and unreasonable standards? Should I have no standards at all and just date any woman who happens to be available? I settled for my ex out of desperation despite finding nothing about her appealing. And as it turned out, she was a psychologically abusive sociopath who targeted me specifically for my vulnerability. After that, I swore I would never settle again.

You did better than me, Dorkseid! Congratulations!

I only have a Bachelor's.

Thank you.

Why don't you go back to school?

I'm probably going to start going after I retire.

The older people I had relationships with, when in my twenties, weren't billionaires or even millionaires.

On a physical level, you should seek a woman who (regardless of age, as long as she's at least 21 or so) is attractive enough to you that you could enjoy having sex with her if the opportunity arose. Hopefully this doesn't rule out all women who are anything less than perfect beauty queens.

But what's more important than looks is her personality, attitudes, interests, and cultural background. Obviously, you don't want another abusive sociopath.

If I recall correctly, you mentioned once that you have a "girly voice" that could not be fixed by taking hormones. If that's correct, then you need to move to a major metropolitan area that has a significant LGBTQ+ community, so that you can find a bisexual woman who is attracted to androgynous men.

You should probably move to an area where there are also a lot of immigrants from Muslim countries, hence also a lot of ex-Muslims. Other factors being equal, an ex-Muslim woman would probably be able to relate to you better than someone from a Christian background.

Does your school have a career services and placement office where you can get advice on these matters?

I'm willing to bet none of them were fat slobs either.

The good news is, it's easier to stop being a fat slob than to become a millionaire.

Oh yes for sure, don't settle for just anyone. But I meant if younger women are more available, then settle for younger, as that shouldn't be too unreasonable?

Do you understand that depression and eating disorders aren't things I can just wish away?

You have to work on it, though.

I have to work on things, too.

I realize that very well. I have been there.

You can like action figures and be a dick to a woman, and you can like action figures and be a gentle man. My so called warped sense of interests doesnt allow me to judge based on interests especially since i have an interest in plushies myself, but I'd hardly say it matters whether I'm autistic or not. I never tended to judge people on it, regardless of my awareness that I'm on the spectrum or that I have unusual interests and don't want to grow out of them. For a while I rid of all my plushies, but they have slowly made their way back into my life, even though not excessively but surely visibly right now. Neighbors kids judge anything as kids display judgeful, mean and non understanding abilities, I wonder how less free I was set in that shame and stuck in that mindset, like you cant even eat garlic without feeling awful about yourself and your whole life is a lie and a mask out of fear of being shamed.

People with an open mind who can take to their partners interests and find something nice in it can be really pleasant to be around for folks like us. But it doesnt mean they have to automatically like the one extreme interest you have, or logically be able to understand extreme autistic fascination, not everyone can relate with the experience and there are levels of interest in different people even on the spectrum itself. My biggest long lived interest is dogs but i cant say i excessively collect/ed dog things or put them all over my room or dedicate a room just to them ( I had bouts of it at times when i collected magazines and posters and wanted to put them up but at the same time didnt want to ruin my walls. So to me it might be even creepy at first if i were presented with such excessivity before ive known a person. At least theyre not copies of human heads in jars, but yeah, it might be overwhelming.

Don't feel ashamed as an atheist that you feel the way you do. Atheists don't have to be a certain way, and it doesnt have to come from religion. I had some issues with my young ex, she was just 19, and indeed the mindset is of a teenager with all the challenges and carefreeness, not to mention the look of youth. Sometimes I felt guilty about it because of the age (despite the difference not being so high) and especially because she had split personality disorder following extreme childhood trauma and some of her personnas, specifically her main was supposed to have been splitted/created when she was a child, and the part itself had a young age upon asking it, and for this reason there were times I denied having intimacy with this part, I felt protective about it, but after her explaining that it's not the same and it's fine and it's not harmful to her, we were able to proceed to a healthy intimacy.

In practice you might find it easier to accept or overcome when someone has older children, than what you tend to think about it as a concept without having known the person and seen their children or heard about them. But if you don't feel comfortable to do it, no one can make you do it. If you deem it right for you and will find it's not detrimental to you then by all means, also I dont have a magically good opinion of people going to strip clubs. I don't resonate with that behaviour, and I don't feel good with things that are without any connection whatsoever. These clubs might decrease the rape or sexual harrassment rate though, just like prostitutes do. As you might know, they sometimes get sexually harrassed meanwhile and after work, or stalked by men.

I am unable to watch the whole video, it's like over an hour, but if you can dirrect to the specific time in the video where things were being said and it bothered you, maybe I can understand it better. I'm not sure if you are saying just in general people talking about the relationship, and I don't think most people know about the woman being actually underage, with the way they are portrayed they often dont seem to be. But I know of the lolicon phenomenon spread throughout the world where people watch extremely underage animated depictions of children in sexual scenes and Japan's age of consent being much lower. Such pictures have made me sick before, I had an ex who was in her single days into them, and I had come to accept that kinks exist and she wouldnt harm a fly. The step brother of another ex got in trouble with his parents for having a lot of such content on his computer, his parents sat him down and explained to him how it's not okay. I can't say I have a strong opinion about false animation either or, and I'm sure there are a lot of people who would never harm a child or would do it with a real child but who watch it as it has highly grown in popularity.

And trust me what you wouldnt like to be is a religious figure like the Vatican pedophiles and other priests.

It's hard to predict who will be the right partner for you, sometimes things just fit into place, or you have to work through some. Oftentimes they are very unexpected, unlike the ideas we tend to make up in our mind about who should be our partner, so as long as you keep a relatively open mind and they do too, it probably will work out.

I see a lot of negative posts about yourself, can you make an exercise in your next post to actually talk about several good things you appreciate about yourself?

I don't dislike being autistic. I just dislike the price I pay for being autistic.