11 Jul 2020, 8:20 am
11 Jul 2020, 6:22 pm
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For most women, not all. Just like I do for most people, not all. I dislike that some (most?) of us censor ourselves so much to pass, or don't and face the mostly uncomfortable consequences. I hope you find women for which you make just the right amount of sense!!
Just yesterday in a work meeting I could feel the pressure to slow down (stop?) thinking. I actually blurted out "I like to think" to adjust expectations as I continued my intellectual gymnastics around a design. And it's hard to listen to others as my mind is racing over the possibilities. I'm contemplating and impressed by the twelve possibilities racing in my head and have to ask "what are you asking?" after someone asks a question about Concept 101 and I have to go back to that. Luckily I was the customer, so had an allowance - but I still feel the disapproval from some people. I know I need to shrug off the 1 in 3 "she's a problem". Acknowledge the 1 in 3 "she's weird but ok". and Embrace the 1 in 3 "she's kind of cool!"
Just yesterday in a work meeting I could feel the pressure to slow down (stop?) thinking. I actually blurted out "I like to think" to adjust expectations as I continued my intellectual gymnastics around a design. And it's hard to listen to others as my mind is racing over the possibilities. I'm contemplating and impressed by the twelve possibilities racing in my head and have to ask "what are you asking?" after someone asks a question about Concept 101 and I have to go back to that. Luckily I was the customer, so had an allowance - but I still feel the disapproval from some people. I know I need to shrug off the 1 in 3 "she's a problem". Acknowledge the 1 in 3 "she's weird but ok". and Embrace the 1 in 3 "she's kind of cool!"
I mean it's something I have to think on more, by way of meditating in my spare time since there's practically no other time to think anyway. There's some amount of adapting I actually want to do for people who don't live, eat, sleep & breathe theoretical technology this way.
I mean it's not as if I'm absolutely out of touch entirely, there's almost nowhere to meet anyone else regardless; I just want to express all the techie nonsense in better ways.
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11 Jul 2020, 6:50 pm
martianprincess wrote:
SharonB wrote:
Martian, you're giving us the side eye, or are your lips sideways, or is that perfect? (re: profile pick)
Side eye!!
I think my face just decided to be scrambled. (;
I'm a pixelated hand sculpted by Hsu Tung Han
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-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos
11 Jul 2020, 7:38 pm
11 Jul 2020, 8:40 pm
cberg wrote:
martianprincess wrote:
SharonB wrote:
Martian, you're giving us the side eye, or are your lips sideways, or is that perfect? (re: profile pick)
Side eye!!
I think my face just decided to be scrambled. (;
I'm a pixelated hand sculpted by Hsu Tung Han
I love that.
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11 Jul 2020, 10:14 pm
martianprincess wrote:
SharonB wrote:
Martian, you're giving us the side eye, or are your lips sideways, or is that perfect? (re: profile pick)
Side eye!!
I think my face just decided to be scrambled. (;
Thought it was a self-portrait in the cubist style of Picasso, or possibly Miró.
12 Jul 2020, 12:59 am
I want to apply more of what I've learned about 3D graphics to some creative projects eventually but I feel like I've had a lot more inspiration in the realm of logic than art these days.
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12 Jul 2020, 1:06 am
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-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos
12 Jul 2020, 10:30 am
12 Jul 2020, 10:43 pm
It looks like it's typing. Maybe it's code...
I don't suppose it's any coincidence the only person to really get close to me is a much better artist than I am. I'm not exactly the clear counterpart to anyone or anything as far as I can see, that's kind of an intriguing abstraction. I don't seem to serve any one particular function.
Well Martianprincess pointed out that there doesn't have to be any reason, I hope women in general are more aware of this open-endedness than I am. I'm probably trapped in a loop meanwhile.
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"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos
13 Jul 2020, 7:58 am
Archmage Arcane wrote:
martianprincess wrote:
SharonB wrote:
Martian, you're giving us the side eye, or are your lips sideways, or is that perfect? (re: profile pick)
Side eye!!
I think my face just decided to be scrambled. (;
Thought it was a self-portrait in the cubist style of Picasso, or possibly Miró.
It is a Roy Lichtenstein work. I was just jokin' around.
13 Jul 2020, 7:59 am
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18 Jul 2020, 1:52 am
The_Face_of_Boo wrote:
cberg wrote:
It looks like it's typing. Maybe it's code...
I don't suppose it's any coincidence the only person to really get close to me is a much better artist than I am. I'm not exactly the clear counterpart to anyone or anything as far as I can see, that's kind of an intriguing abstraction. I don't seem to serve any one particular function.
Well Martianprincess pointed out that there doesn't have to be any reason, I hope women in general are more aware of this open-endedness than I am. I'm probably trapped in a loop meanwhile.
I don't suppose it's any coincidence the only person to really get close to me is a much better artist than I am. I'm not exactly the clear counterpart to anyone or anything as far as I can see, that's kind of an intriguing abstraction. I don't seem to serve any one particular function.
Well Martianprincess pointed out that there doesn't have to be any reason, I hope women in general are more aware of this open-endedness than I am. I'm probably trapped in a loop meanwhile.
Ctrl + c in terminal if you are stuck in a loop.
18 Jul 2020, 3:31 am
If I'm not stuck in a loop, we might all be trapped in a simulation anyway.
I have no keybindings to speak of. Pushing my buttons is not sensible because nobody knows what they're for at all, so I keep my head down so to speak more often than not.
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"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos
18 Jul 2020, 7:59 pm
martianprincess wrote:
cberg wrote:
It looks like it's typing. Maybe it's code...
I don't suppose it's any coincidence the only person to really get close to me is a much better artist than I am. I'm not exactly the clear counterpart to anyone or anything as far as I can see, that's kind of an intriguing abstraction. I don't seem to serve any one particular function.
Well Martianprincess pointed out that there doesn't have to be any reason, I hope women in general are more aware of this open-endedness than I am. I'm probably trapped in a loop meanwhile.
I don't suppose it's any coincidence the only person to really get close to me is a much better artist than I am. I'm not exactly the clear counterpart to anyone or anything as far as I can see, that's kind of an intriguing abstraction. I don't seem to serve any one particular function.
Well Martianprincess pointed out that there doesn't have to be any reason, I hope women in general are more aware of this open-endedness than I am. I'm probably trapped in a loop meanwhile.
I feel like I'm not aware of anything half the time but maybe other folks are.
Impostor syndrome isn't the same as actually being oblivious though. You did point out that there isn't necessarily anything in particular to be aware of, which is actually its' own bit of useful knowledge, I guess...
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