I don't have anyone I miss who's recently died...well, that's kind of a lie. My cousin died of lung cancer some five years ago exactly, and in the morning, when I woke up to go to school, there was a beautiful orange cloud cluster all over the sky, casting a glow all over the house and the yard. A few minutes later, it disappeared, and I don't think anyone else in my family saw it except for me.
I also miss my kind-of-boyfriend. We met online, and I know that Aspie women tend to fall into these suspectable relationships, but we've disclosed so much information to each other, and I, being immensely paranoid, have googled him and contacted people who say they know him, etc, and we're both very real people with very real feelings for each other. Only problem is, he's ten hours away and his parents are paranoid. It's really frustrating when the one person you feel is your other half, the missing link into actually exposing, discovering, and maybe even admitting to your feelings can't be there, no matter how hard you try or how much you want it. Maybe, someday, by some amazing turn of events, he'll be there. And for now, that's all I can hope for.
J