I was 18, it was with a friend of my cousin's. My cousin, her, and I hung out all day and then decided to have a party at her place that evening with some friends. We all got drunk, and then she started texting me. Eventually she asked me to come outside for my first kiss (literally what she said). I became very nervous but went out anyways. I think we talked briefly, and then she started kissing me, for like 2 minutes....it felt like a long time. I remember her asking how it was, and I was so stunned, I couldn't conjure an answer. She thought she did something wrong and I tried to reassure her it was fine, I was just stunned and didn't know what to say. "well how about we try again?" I think she said....
That continued for the rest of the night, and escalated to the point where she asked what I wanted to do next, and I knew that meant 'do you want to have sex'. That thought made me feel really uncomfortable and nervous because I felt unprepared, and I didn't want to disappoint her; I turned her down. Maybe if I told her what I was feeling she would have understood and we'd take it easy.....it's a decision I regret terribly. But I need to look at the bright side; at least I was able to have that experience, and I got to touch butt and breasts.
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