Finchel_Gleek wrote:
I'm a cuddler, and as well as a relationship, I really want somebody to cuddle with. I love to cuddle and fall asleep with whoever I happen to be in a relationship with. I love the closeness. It makes me warm, makes me feel loved, and makes me feel protected. In general, it just feels good to have that other person there, even if we are just enjoying each other's company and not talking. I just wish I could find somebody who wants to be with me and do that with me. The holidays are coming up really fast, and every year I always make a secret wish that I could meet an awesome guy and fall in love with him and actually have him fall in love with me, too, and it never happens. That would be the best Christmas present ever, and it's the one thing I always ask for that I never get. I love Christmas, but it gets really lonely when you're single at Christmas, even if you spend it with your family.
I know that feeling. I used to love Christmas with my family, but now I'm 100s of miles away. And my grandfather is quickly dying of cancer. He probably won't even make it to Christmas. Back when I lived with my dad we had a Jack Russell that loved to curl up next to someone at night, and for awhile that really helped. I've been living alone for the past year, and I have terrible insomnia. I can't sleep unless I have alcohol first, but I refuse to allow myself to drink on weekday nights (family history of drinking problems).
So yeah, life can be an arduous death-march sometimes. Especially right around this time of year.