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hey my name is Mark, i go by LeeZee on this site. Im 25 and i think i most likely have slight aspergers. i would be willing to bet all my money that im somewhere near the bottem on the spectrum. When i read some of ur guys post i can relate, im not gonna lie tho, Im not as bad as some of u guys, but i can still see where ur coming from. as a child i had to repeat the first grade. they said i had a perception imparement. at 18 i started taking Adderall for ADHD. that was a pretty productive time in life only i already was beginning to develop sleep probs- mostly insaumnia. after like a year it got to be too much, then i started to take klonopin to relax and sleep better. Klonopin made me a fat mess after time tho, i cant stop eating on it- and u can forget about the gym on thos things.. I consider myself a great naturall musician and have been making Rap-n-RB beats for 5 years now. i even went to audio recording and engineering school and thanks to that i am now patent-pending with a new musical invention both me and my investors are very excited about. Well actually thats not true, i didnt go to school just to invent something, it was 2 years after shool ended that the idea popped into my head, but i do agree i most likely needed some school to do this. Last year i hit ROCK BOTTOM, for 2 months strait i was drinking ALL NIGHT (by myself writing songs) and sleepin (or tryin to) all day. I felt like i was kurt cobain. I was reclessly depressed. i started having thoughts of my funeral and shit- it was a very dark-twisted time in my head. all i kept thinkin was "is always gonna be like this" over and over and it scared the livin sh*t out of me. i never contemplated suicide but sometimes a circle of stress would start in my head and i would just bug-out insticively. like if i had a gun in the drawer i would have ran over to it, white-faced, and shot my self- like a switch had turned on. the scariest part was i knew this was happening so it was like a fight to the death to overcome these feelings. litteraly.. just when i thought i couldnt get any worse, i was drunk talkin some crap one nite and got the sh*t kicked out of me. that sent me into a much needed breakdown. for about a week i layed in bed on suicide watch from my family, i was conviced that alcohol started all of this and i swore never to drink again. i was terrified at the thought of drinkin and thought i would eventually end up dead if i drank again which is probly true- see i am 100% irish and growing up kids always made me feel that cuz im irish all i should do is drink- so naturally i became a lush just to fit in. from 17 to 24 is a very drunk time. for instance, if alcohol didnt work with a particullar prescription i was on- sorry pills but im drinkin. also my step dad is an alcoholic and my house has always been the party house, and i live at the Jersey Shore where booze flows on the reg.. But im strong so i cut all booze for 3 months. during that time is when i started my invention- it was my rehab. today (a year and a month later) im much better. ive since moved out of my isolation, an attic in bayonne, back to my parents. from living alone i was very disassociated but thats all getting better and i feel young again. i do have some drinks on the weekends but my whole perception on alcohol has changed.. Im not gonna lie tho, i DO smoke alot of weed and i love it. i really feel it helps me relax and be more sociall, i dont consider myself socially inadiquete. after doing aspergers research i feel i have like 65% of empathy as opposed to a normal persons 100%. . .thanks for listening, get back to me.....

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hi my name's john. i'm 14, i live in London, and have just joined wp. i was initially diagnosed with NLD (non-verbal learning disorder) when i was about 6 and at that time i wasn't really sure what this meant(i was only 6 after all). all i know is that for about the first ten years of my life i was moved schools roughly every two years (first a local school, then a private school and then some sort of private education unit run by a cranky old lady ). i didn't really realize I had some sort of learning disability until i was 11 or 12, when i moved into a residential child psychology unit. this was a major help for me, as it helped me to realize what having NLD really meant. i started taking Ritalin supplements and was re-diagnosed with mild aspegers. generally i cope with having asperger's as what i lack in social ability i make up for with intelligence and i don't mind ocassionally being called "the crazy kid" (actually a lot of my NT freinds act a bit weird too). i discovered wp as some random person called Chris recommended it to me and i registered. i have found wp to be a very supportive community and i think that for once in my life, i'm fitting in.

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this is probably called spamming but who cares it is my 1000th post yay. now begins the angst to find a cool title

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Hi, my name's Craig.
I live in Auckland, New Zealand, and was diagnosed with AS last year.
I'm high functioning, but nevertheless it was a relief to know I'm not just a slow learner when it comes to social things etc.
And to know there actually are other people out there like me.
Also threw up a lot of questions, being that I've lived 29 years thinking I was essentially the same as everyone else, just not as good at it...
My interests are: writing and reading; gardening; birds (NZ has the most incredible birds) and other animals; nature in general; music - making and listening - and the beach.
I just love the feeling of being in the water! And the sand between my toes...
I'm a journalist by trade, although I'm currently working as a communications advisor. Ironic, I know, but it means I get paid to write, and I can imitate for the rest of the role!
I've never really been on/written on forums before, but I'd love to get to know some of you - it would be great to talk to others like me, and glean your wisdom.

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Testing, testing. Hello everybody, I am a newbie from Finland.

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Wow! I can't believe that I just found you guys. Dr Attwood didn't mention this place.

Hi I'm Mark, live in outback Queensland Australia.

I'd realised since I was about 12 that I was very different from the rest of my classmates and never fitted in and this left me very depressed and suicidal through my teenage years. Never knew why until one of my children bought home a flyer from school many years later. It was as if they had written the piece about me without me knowing. I rang the number at the bottom and the rest is history. I finally knew I was indeed on the wrong planet. A month later I got to see Dr Attwood, it was like having a veil removed from my eyes. He gave me a heap of information to read and then I finally understood myself, I wasn't crazy! Now I'm happy to be who I am and embrace what makes me eccentric and wouldn't want to be any other way.

I love to drive! Anything, RC cars, slotcars, PC driving simulator, my real cars. When I first attempted to drive I was so clumsy my dad thought I would never get it. Practice, practice, practice and more practice and now it's like I'm part of the car. There's nothing I would rather be doing and all that I do is a means to an end to drive.

My backyard is a race track, 1:10 scale, takes up 1/4 acre. I never moved far from where I grew up (400m up the road). I'm comfortable here and it's nice and quiet in this small country town.

My 2 eldest boys are at that age when I discovered I didn't fit, they too are finding it difficult. Peers can be so cruel.

I still can't believe this...

Thanks, Mark

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hi!
welcome home!

Dr Attwood definately knows of our presense, but then we are pretty unorthodox around here and a lot of what we do and say might not be something he would sanction, so he can't say much, I guess.

Like you, I learned much later in life about the truth of my condition, and must say, on the whole, it is better now. I wish you many hours of truth, understanding and just plain fun, here!

Merle

Hi, the name's Adam, i'm 25 years of age. I was given the nickname "Adam-Anti-Um" after the indestructable metal. And also the "Anti" part represents my stance on many matters in this world.

I would say that I'm a pretty laid back guy, though there are varying aspects of my personality that scream of the opposite. I seem to be always going from one extreme to the other without warning. I suffer from a lack of self esteem and confidence. I guess I need to learn how to build that up myself, and not rely on others. On the outside I appear as a crazy guy, but once you get to know me I'm a marshmallow. I would say I'm a very giving and loving person. Maybe too much so, hence the fact that I've been hurt so much. But hey, thats the way I am, and I intend to stay that way. Even if it means me gettin hurt.

To provide a further introspective image of myself, I would admit to being a Achluophobe, Anuptaphobe, Atychiphobe, Caligynephobe, Carcinophobe, Catagelophobe, Emetophobe, Gamophobe, Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia, (well I dont have this particular phobia, I just love that this is the fear of long words! LMAO), Mastigophobe, Nyctohylophobe, Selachophobe, Sociophobe, Stenophobe, Thalassophobe, all rolled into one.

Anything else you wish to know, PM me.