Little successes and other happy things

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Well my boyfriend before we met IRL sent me one of the best messages that I will never remember. I can't even remember what all he said but it was certainly more of an essay style messege I had never had someone send me a message like that before. So a month later I finally messeged him back...at the time I first saw the messege i was really pissed off about a guy I met who seemed to be interested telling me he wasn't. So I was feeling bitter and wanted to I guess recover from that before getting involved with anyone else. So after a month I sent him a messege in response, asking if he was still interested and sure enough he was. I mean I figured maybe in that time he already found someone better...but no he had been on a few dates he found disappointing so very much still wanted to meet me.

I mean sometimes I even wonder how he can stick around, because I just feel like I have all these issues and almost feel bad he has to see it sometimes...but even when I have had some meltdowns and things he still wants to stick with me. I mean I feel bad because I am just not really used to someone being so forgiving of my flaws and really making an effort to make a relationship with me work. Like I guess sometimes I still have some disbelief that he didn't just decide to move on...like what is so special about me? Seems he found something.

Like earlier we argued a bit, but then it occured to my boyfriend we had not eaten anything all day and that was probably effecting our mood. He had a double shift and so we went to go grab a couple things at the store and such and we just held of eating too long...so we were both all hangry. I mean IDK maybe some couples would stay pissed at each other, but we kind of got to the bottom of why we were being so irritable towards each other. I mean we have never had one of those horribly toxic arguments with insults slung at each other or anything like that, but we can both get irritated or overwhelmed and sometimes it results in small conflicts. I mean we both kind of have the issue of wanting to socialize some but then we don't want to deal with the vast majority of people. Sort of hard for us to make friends that way I suppose.

managed to walk around the block once, despite having an intertarsal neuroma that today felt like a stiff wad of cotton under the ball of my foot, whereas a week ago it felt like a large marble under there. hey, it's something, at least.