I have a huge problem when it comes to missing people. It takes me an extremely long time to get close to someone, due to my lack of communication skills and overall fear. I try and keep my distance for the most part. The problem is that when I do have people close to me, and it comes time for me to let them go, even if for only a few months, I miss them uncontrollably. Missing people is one of those things that seems to rip through me like a tidal wave.
Right now there are two people that I miss the most.
1) My grandmother, the most beautifully kind hearted person I have yet to meet thus far.
She died four years ago, and left me feeling a kind of loss I had never known before. I seem to be missing her alot lately, and I can't figure out why. Especially right now, since I recently found out about my asperger's and my aunt told me my grandmother always saw it too. She said my grandmother actually saw ME. That's the most I can say for anyone, I'm usually pretty invisible or not noticed, and very rarely if ever, understood.
2) My best friend I met this past year at university. I honestly have never met anyone like her before, and I am so unbelievably appreciative of her and our friendship. She is the closest I've ever come to having someone understand me when I try to explain how I'm feeling about something. I am a very deep person (as I think comes along with this disorder, but I'm new to it still) and I feel like I'm allowed to be that when I'm around her. She picks up on the things I do and is very perceptive. I don't talk alot, but having her be my friend means that I don't necessarily have to. I'm getting less and less afraid of being my neurotic self around her. Anyways, I am missing her alot because it's summer break and I won't see her for another four months. It may not seem like a long time, but for me it seems like forever. I miss her company, she makes me not feel so alone.