Anything random to say about your crush/love/relationship?

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According to the data received,
And careful observation,
My conclusion is:
You're smoking hot.

I just saw your real pic, omg..you're adorable cute!!

^ Funnily enough, I've never really considered myself cute that much, so whenever anyone [my mum, my dad, ectc] called me cute, I act like this: But now I act like this:

About my relationship-

I often worry that I will ruin what we have with my insecurities.

would you?

i stole her heart apparently. she said that. wow.

i exchanged ideas and existencies with Kol for the first time today since july. she makes music now. she dates a singer. i am unsurprised to see that she still jumps from one to another, but slightly relieved at the same time to see she has left the last one. it did not go well, she pulled the part of my brain containing rescue complexes and dragged me from my house at midnight.

You didn't laugh at my joke.. You knew that was a joke...didn't you?

or Were you joking back to my joke?

Hot diggety daffodil we make a great hive mind...

i...i..don't...know.

Thank you for being there when I needed you the most...even though you were far away, your understanding made all the difference in the world.

well it seems i am going to have to go to tammy's place for christmas after all.
she told me i had to go whether i liked it or not, and she said she would probably cry if i did not go (when i asked her what would happen if i did not go).

i asked her to try to assess the probability that she would cry if i did not go, and she immediately said 100%, but i knew she could not have calculated it that fast, so i asked her to think more carefully about it and she said in an excited manner that if i did not want to go then it was fine with her.

i then told her that i was relieved that we had sorted that out, and she told me i was unfeeling. i could not be bothered to interrogate her as to what she meant by that, so i asked her if my going to her place (mothers place really) would solve everything and she said yes.

so it looks like i am going to have to go there for christmas and i have no idea what i will do there. her mother and brothers and sister will also be there, and they always try to involve me in their stuff, but i do not like their stuff, and i have a hard time pretending to be acquiescent.

it is better to just let them talk and not say anything because whatever i say will just stir their pots. i hate having to shut my mind for any length of time. i can not meditate. i find it difficult to think about nothing.

what a drag it is going to be...

I don't know how long you two have been together but I think it's worth for you to make efforts to go outside of your safety zone. If she's important to you, it would be very sweet of you if you show her that these people who are important to her are important to you as well. But most of all, she would want to spend Christmas with you and she would want you to feel the same way as her even if with her family members attached.

To my special someone: Thank you! Thank you so much! Lots of love!

15 years

tammy is important to me, but they are not important to me, so i can not really pretend that they are. they do not like it.



tammy can talk more easily with me than anyone else in her life. she is also autistic and she does not see the sense in conversation with them, but she gets something out of being with them nevertheless. she likes to have me there because i am unlikely to be lost to her because of her sibling's conversation. i am similar in many ways to tammy, but one difference is that i never crave company and she always does.


i do not know what that means but thanks for considering my post.

i may try to compile a list of similarities between me and tammy. not because i need to remember them, but because i like to see them in print.
so, it is hard for me to consider things like this...

similarities:
likes airplanes to an extreme degree and has very long attention span when watching slow moving things.
i like airplanes too in a similar way to her, and she is transfixed by flight simulator.
we can go on 3 or 4 hour flights from one airport to another together. sometimes she is on the controls and sometimes i am.
we can watch the terrain rolling by underneath and remark to each other how fast we seem to be going (even though it looks slow to the un-inquiring eye) and she and i know the landmarks that pass by and we both know where we are precisely in the trip.
no one else has ever been able to accompany me on those virtual trips.
she wants to watch for hours the otherwise normally boring scenery pass underneath the plane and we fantasize about having a bedroom on the plane and going to bed and putting the plane on autopilot for 8 hours, and i reposition the game camera to show an "out of a side window" view on the big TV as we go to bed and she keeps watching it until i have to get up and land the plane.

she likes that i have no attitude about anything. she finds my frustration episodes at minor things hilarious. i can go almost beserk at very trivial inconveniences, yet remain unfazed at things that would make other people impassioned.

there is more to list as to compatabilities but i am tired of doing it.

"if there was anyone who understood me best in this life of mine, it was tammy" is what i expect to think when i am a few seconds away from death (hopefully a long time in the future).

It would be nice if my SO has some similarities to me as well..I may sort them out someday I didn't think about them yet.