Anything random to say about your crush/love/relationship?

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I'm not running ahead too far, I promise

Just being optimistic for you.
Attraction doesn't really make any sense, but I think if something's real enough to feel, then it might be worth listening to.

Having someone love you enough to move across the country for you is an amazing feeling, but it's also a lot of pressure. Especially when you know they'll end up homeless if you aren't ready to move in (and split rent) quickly.

Doko ni iru no? I hope I didn't say anything to upset you. I'm courting the wind again, it seems.

I can't talk to her. I see her so often and I've blown so many chances. I have a hard time looking in her direction. I know she at least thought i was cute two months ago but I've been so unable to approach her.

Depression makes me so guilty.
The guilt might be worse than the depression itself.
I keep wanting to ask you: Are you sure you want this?
But that's a selfish f*****g question. That's an insult. And I don't mean it.

Posting this here because I need to write it somewhere, and I'm 99% sure you won't see this.
If you do though.
.
Stalker.
I am sorry.
And I mean that in the deepest sense.

I have a tendency to practice escapism by daydreaming, including daydreaming about being with someone I'm interested. If I'm not thinking about space warfare or playing video games, I'm doing this, so I eventually reach a point where I love the daydreamed version of that person and get obsessed with the real person because you start to lose track of the barrier between reality and fiction when you do this for too long. Eventually it reaches a point where I annoy them and they stop talking to me, but I think simply becoming self aware of this a few days ago will permanently fix the problem.

i hope you didn't forget that this month it will be two years.

is that an occasion enough to make you come over?

Q: Anything random to say about your crush/love/relationship?
A: Is a fictional figment of my imagination.

Feelings are stupid.

I feel stupid

Sometimes it's hard to breathe
At the bottom of the sea.

Watashi no kokoro no takanaru. Soshite, anata suki de wakarenai. Gomenesai. Demo, anata aishiteru wa--kore wa ai uchuu.

I'm in a weird phase where I'm not sure if I love him anymore but he doesn't love me anyway so it should be good, but he is basically the only person I love and I'm not sure what feelings will remain after love fades

I'm feeling like I'm either an idiot if I send a postcard across town or equally so if I remain same ole' awkward me until I see her next. I'm probably better at surprises even though I don't know why. Can't stop checking myself.

Hopefully I'm misinterpreting other random pressures. I've been studying enough for my head to echo & I know someone who pulls me out of it.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

I give my love a bit too freely, a bit too much for just little me.

may these two years serve as only a small preview, a mere beginning slice of what is to come

te iexenoon.