That's the really wacky thing about it all - you can do one stupid superficial thing and all of sudden, with no added or lost substance than what you had before - everything seems to change
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I hope the best for you and yes, hopefully your luck holds. You deserve it, every guy here who means well and has his head together deserves it. I'd just say go with it, don't fight it, question it but keep yourself from letting those questions turn you bitter toward women as they usually have the same odd luck with their sex appeal to guys. The world is just a mess like that - take what you can in this regard, definitely don't deny your right to success though - too much of the wrong kind of thought in the immediate here and now IMO
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