My ex (undiagnosed aspie) seems to be doing everything now that he never did when we were together. Going to college parties (he's 35 and hangs out at the local uni with 21 to 22 year-old kids), going clubbing, going to the movies and eating out at various restaurants, etc. I had to fight tooth and nail to get him to go anywhere with me when we were together and it hurts to see him now do this so freely with his "friends". College kids are so transitory and I can't help but feel that they just take advantage of him because he drives them places and appear to have a ton of money despite not having a paying job. They probably think he's living off a trust fund which is so far from the truth.
Maybe he just hated me and my company? Because why would he do all these things now that he abhorred doing when he was with me? It boggles the mind. It's like he's a completely different person.
The ironic twist is that I'm generally a homebody and I'm leading the life now he always insisted he wanted. I'm home every night and rarely go out on weekends. I kinda thought we'd have kids by now, but alas, it wasn't meant to be. I still miss him though and no one can make me laugh the way he could. I just wish things had turned out differently. I get quite lonely.
Still, I wish him all the happiness in the world.
11 Jan 2010, 1:39 am
