The first real kiss was with Gary. I was 11, he was 12. We kissed in my bedroom on my bed while my parents were out that weekend. My dad just painted my room. He was the first boy I smelled deeply. I love the scent of attraction.
We made out for hours it seemed, but it was probably only for 20 minutes or so. After that night, I didn't see him for a while, but my room just smelled of him and even now when I smell new paint it reminds me of him. I missed him after that night, but after a few weeks we became boyfriend and girlfriend.
We wound up staying together for a year. He was my best friend at that time and we used to kiss passionately, exchange gum, declare undying love for one another. Then for some reason, I just shut off. My emotions just stopped once it got too intense.
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As long as man continues to be the ruthless destroyer of lower living beings he will never know health or peace. For as long as men massacre animals, they will kill each other.
-Pythagoras