It's official, I don't have a girlfriend, but I'm happy!

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Okay... so last year, back in September I started college, doing a media course, in short. I met a girl who coincidentally happened to be my sisters friend in their english class, when they were in GCSE. So I'm 16, she was 18, just turned 19. A lot of the time I wasn't being myself, truth be told, but when we were in small groups I kind of was, and had some short, but enjoyable conversations with her. Then I found out she lived local to me, and so we arranged that her, and her friend, who took it in turns to drive would start picking me up and taking me to college, so we got some more time to talk... but I often found myself trying too hard and sometimes making inappropriate, and immature jokes, which... in truth, not even I would enjoy, I just thought it'd perhaps make her think I was quick witted? Either way, this was pretty stupid, heh.

So anyways, Christmas came round and I hadn't been picked up for the last week, I didn't know why and had been phoning this girl all week to find out, so at the end of the week I went on facebook and had a message in my Inbox basically saying she'd had tonsillitis, so was too ill to go in, and that's why she hadn't been answering her phone because it hurt to talk. This is when I decided to tell her that I liked her. After Christmas and new years had passed she hadn't replied, and over the last few days I have been seriously depressed, anxious and just... not very happy at all really... I was worried that I'd made her feel uncomfortable... that I may have upset her with what I'd said, or I don't know. I said something about how I hadn't been myself lately, so I thought maybe I'd kinda scared her off because she didn't know if she could trust me or something?

Anyways, today we finally talked on facebook chat, "dont get me wrong i was flattered by your message but i think its best we just stay friends"... I think... the last 3 days I've been putting myself through so much emotional distress that this was like a fly hitting the hulk, didn't feel a thing, I knew I'd messed up... for now... I don't think this is the end. I asked her if she still wanted to go to the cinema sometime, since I've been trying to organise it for some time, she said "maybe, let's see how things go". I didn't mean like a date per cay, but I think that's maybe how she took it, if so... that's kinda a good thing! If things go well she wouldn't mind going out on a date with me? Anyway, now I'm felt with a giant boulder of a weight being lifted off my shoulders, I feel so much more relaxed and WILL NOT be trying to be someone else to impress her in future, because I know I'm much more eligible than the other teenage jerks in our class (not to say I don't like a lot of them... but they're teenagers... they're jerks, and generally don't know how to respect a woman ^_^). So, yah, happy, atlast!

Anyways, this is just something I felt I needed to vent, thanks for reading, feel free to comment below and if you think I've misinterpreted anything, feel free to put that below as well .

good for you!

I don't think you should consider this a date really If she said she only wants to be friends, giving yourself hope will only get you hurt later on. It is possible she could change her mind once she spends more time with you though!