So, it's absolutely done with my internet friend.

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I won't talk to him again. And he's blocked me and done with me because he's tired of hurting my feelings. And I guess I never meant much to him, and I just became a burden.
So, he's an aspie, and he'll never care enough about me to get better at communication or anything. He just doesn't give enough of a crap.

I've never been in such emotional pain or for such a long time. I thought he liked me as much as I liked him. I thought he was my best friend, and vice versa.
I feel like such a fool for, once again, misreading something. It's going to take forever for me to get over it.

I'm very sorry to hear this. May your suffering be short.

"So, he's an aspie, and he'll never care enough about me to get better at communication or anything. He just doesn't give enough of a crap."

No OP, no - don't personalize his limitations. You have no idea why he didn't improve his ability to communicate, or if improvement was even possible. Please don't assume that because improvement didn't occur that it has anything to do with you, or his feelings for you. People behave in ways that are difficult to understand. While his actions certainly affected you, it doesn't mean those actions are about you. Let him be responsible for his own actions, okay?

And please don't waste your time feeling like a fool. Maybe you misread the situation, maybe you didn't. Maybe he's fickle or stressed out or depressed or unsure of himself.......or some middle-aged guy playing weird games on the internet. Whatever the actual reason is, try to remember that just because this one relationship didn't work out doesn't devalue you as a person. Some people just aren't a good fit (nobody's fault); sometimes people aren't ready for a relationship (no matter who might cross their path), sometimes the timing just isn't right. It's completely normal to grieve the loss of the relationship - but please don't tear yourself down in the process, okay?

Believe me, I know how that feels, I was in almost the exact same situation with my ex-girlfriend. It'll get better, don't worry

I can sympathize given i was in a kind of "online relationship" for about a year before it ended rather abruptly. I'll admit, I've been hurting over it for a long time . . . we got very close, but i guess it just wasnt meant to be . . . and i keep telling myself this. Dont ever feel bad . . . random stuff like this will happen, whether we understand why or not. About the only thing you can do is remember the good times you did have with this person and move on. No two people are the same, so keep you mind and heart open to new potential. Something has to give eventually (My internet bit started in 2007, and ended in 2008 . . . other that, i havent really dated since 2001 . . . time will pass). "You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, you might get what you need," as an old song goes .

Hey, now, I'm sorry he's hurting your feelings, but cut the guy a little slack - if he's truly got AS, changing and getting better is for the most part out of his hands. He may feel that he's been hurt or slighted somehow, too - I know how expert I am at misreading signals and getting all verklempt. Often it turns out to have been nothing, but I don't realize that until I've overreacted and made an ass of myself. He may get over it, he might never look back, but whatever becomes of it all, it has nothing to do with you being less than lovable. Order a pizza and some chocolate milk and listen to Hopegrows, her advice is quite solid.

This time.



That's the thing about Internet relationships - since you're not in the room, or usually even in the same town, it's impossible to know what's going on with another person - you just can't - his dropping contact might have nothing personal to do with you at all, unless he's told you that it does, I wouldn't assume. I'm sorry you're hurting. It won't feel like that forever, forever's a longer time than human memory can sustain the same emotion. Just try projecting your imagination six months into the future, where you've made new friends, things are going well and you don't even think about that guy anymore...


WTF? I thought you were in Constantinople?

I remember losing one of my favourite WP members, as in Internet friend. I was depressed for two and a half years, and I've just started getting better, this past September.

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mv-KcF3Rkv8[/youtube]

Ok. I just feel bad...I mean, I have severe difficulty with communicating feelings. I was trembling when I first did to him. And every time after that. And it wasn't easy, it took research. If he cared about me, he'd had done the same. Or at least been sad to say goodbye.

It's hard. I'll try not to.


Oh, and I am in Constantinople...Well, Istanbul. Why would you think I wasn't?

We all do, and while we may have empthy issues, we can sympathize. You're lucky that you got a chance to say goodbye . . . some here have not had that kind of luxury (ie, would much rather know why something has ended rather than be left hanging without an answer/reason). This will cause emotional ache, so no one said it would be easy. All i can say is is try your best to move on . . . conversely, thats the hardest part. Yet the sooner you can, the sooner you can avoid depression (Im still on meds as a result of mine . . . cost aside, i wouldnt wish the necessity on anyone). You still have friends here . . . never doubt that .

I'm so glad I can talk to the people here. I'll try to move on. Somehow, I still have hope. I don't know why. It is pretty obviously over.
I'm sorry you're on meds. I'm depressed. I hope you can eventually dump the meds.
I still can't get over the idea that he doesn't care about me as I do him. It hurts so bad. This is my official first heart-break. It's terrible.

It's a very old, very silly song...


You should track it down and listen to it. It's impossible to stay sad listening to "Istanbul, Not Constantinople" - I think the most recent version of it I've heard was recorded by the band They Might Be Giants.

I think I know that song. XD I'll go look it up.

Ugh, Turkey has no desserts like in the tiny toons version. XD That bugs me.

I've told myself never to become "too" attached to internet friends, unless i can meet / contact them irl.

And yeah, i don't think Turkey has deserts nearby... At least, not sandy deserts.

Desserts (candies, pastries, etc), not deserts (Sahara, etc). . .