comrade wrote:
Romantically downtrodden of all nations unite! I am sick and tired of being a spectator to NT's mating rituals. They go through it with no more awareness than a chimpanzee in the zoo. They find somebody in their unimaginative little world, in their meaningless little subset of normal, and then call their recreational sex true love. They flit from relationship to relationship until they find somebody to breed with and then call it true love....soul mates....significant others. The truth of the matter is that Karl Marx had it wrong - religion is not the opium of the masses, sex is. Let people initiate intercourse and they will succumb to any tyranny. Just watch CNN. Revolutionaries are all young people without sexual ties because when people develop sexual ties they get soft and complacent. What is love anyway but a biochemical wash of chemicals across the synaptic neurons. Sure, I would like a girlfriend, but I am not wired for a relationship. I cannot tolerate close physical proximity and I feel like a freak. Maybe I am a freak. But at least I have a brain and intelligence and I am not going to dissipate it in a relationship with an NT who is so stupid that I would probably have to hit her over the head to remind her to breathe. O.K. so maybe I am a little bit frustrated. There is an NT that I like who thinks that I am a refugee from outer space. It is all really depressing because what is so easy for NT's is so difficult for me. I find myself trying to socialize with these people and I cannot think of a dam* thing to say. They talk and laugh and I really do not understand what is so funny. Is there a female out there who is wired like me? They say that for every shoe there is a mate, but I am the exception that proves the rule. There are a lot of relationship issues that get overlooked in an AS diagnosis, like low self esteem. It is all so stupid. I feel like I am normal yet whenever I get involved with other people I have no idea what to say or do. I could spend the rest of my life pursuing my narrow interests but I am in a search for greater normalcy.
NT's LOVE to flaunt their sexuality they say
"Look at me! I'm the Shi- I got a girl that i do every night HA HA!"
It sickens me! At school, people are feeling each other up RIGHT IN PUBLIC!
I repeat... IT SICKENS ME!! !
Also, my self esteem is not low, it is non-existant
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