aaaaaargh!! !! ! (to be ignored by anyone I know in person..)

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I found out today that my ex girlfriend, who Ive recently started having... thoughts... about again, still likes me as well.

The problem is, shes also a good friend, and its a friendship that suddenly became very awkward after the last time we split up and it wasnt easy to work past that, and I dont want to have that awkwardness again if it didnt work out this time. And shes currently going out with one of my other friends, and has been for about a year, who she says she still loves. And Im also not her only ex boyfriend in that same circle of friends, she went out with my best friend for about 3 months awhile back. And my other best friend is completely besotted with her (and, as far as I know, doesnt know me and her ever went out) and it would crush him completely if he found out we were dating (and hes already been talking about... the... final decision...). And also Im in love with someone else (but who dosent love me back, and who, for reasons some of you might know, but I dont feel like getting into here, I wouldnt ever want to get into a relationship with - even more bloody complicated than this *screams*).

Still, I was tempted to ask her to ask her to leave the current boyfriend and go out with me again, but since not only am I not entirely sure what reaction I would have gotten, since as I said shes in love with him, or at least thinks she is anyway, dunno which, but also all those other reasons as well, I didnt.

I think I did the right thing (nothing being the right thing ¬_¬) didnt I? Yeh Im pretty sure I did, I really only made this thread to vent. Felt I had to get it off my chest.

...I DID do the right thing didnt I?

Yes, I defintly did the right thing in leaving it, its the fact that Im still having doubts about that that isnt right. It might have tipped my best friend over the edge, and yet a little voice in my head - actually quite a large voice in my head - is still telling me i should have gone for it. Im a horrible person.

Ok, she knows I still like her as well now, and she agrees that it would be irresponsible to start anything up again, so i might as well get rid of the "to be ignored by anyone i know in person" sign now.

EDIT: actually, Im not sure whether her bf is on this site (he has AS to) and I doubt shed want him to know she still likes me, so ill leave the sign there...