It probably won't happen for a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time for me... I don't know... maybe this is unhealthy, but I don't really care about independence... perhaps this is due to depression and stuff... I mean who knows the strength of what is in my head and mental build up, right?
It's possible that I have taken a turn that I never should have taken mentally.
I do feel awful, that's for sure. I have had a desperate yearning for something to happen in some way...
It's painful, and difficult... I just want to be an emotional paradox of a human being creating, creating, and creating...
But I need love, and I don't know when it will happen, when I will feel ready, or anything of this sort, and of course - when I'll forget my ex girlfriend whom I'm cursed to feel tormented about.
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Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle,
and the life of the candle will not be shortened.
Happiness never decreases by being shared.