This is going to be fairly long but I really would like to share the what has happened to me over the past few months and the transformation I have gone through.
Flashback to 7th grade. I had just moved mid year and I was starting at my new school. Things went well at first but as time went on I just didn't want to be there. (In fact I wanted to be anywhere but school.) Not long after I started to drop into a funk my 18 y/o cousin died in a car accident. After that things really started to go down hill. I was depressed, kept having panic attacks, and couldn't sleep. My grades were horrible. My year ended after I made threats against a teacher that ripped a book from my hands. School was almost out so I just missed the last month or so.
Of course through all of this I still had no idea I was an aspie. For some reason or another I returned to school for the first day of 8th grade. They put me in the class with all the degenerates. I swore I would not return. I went home that day, cried, and told my mother I was never going back to the middle school. So for the next three years (8th, 9th, and 10th) I was cyber-schooled.
That time really put me through a transformation. I matured and found out I had AS. I strenghtened my soul and my mind (and the weak parts of my personality). However, during this period I was extremely anti-social, not directly, but I spent maybe 5 hours outside my house a week (Russian class and church) and I was exhausted from this.
Well at the end of last summer I made a big choice: to return to public school. Since my return I have gained many friends, gotten a girlfriend, joined the wrestling team and chess club, and learned even more about myself. The older I get the stronger I feel in both mind and body. I know who I am and I hope all of you can get to know yourselves!
27 Nov 2010, 9:46 pm
