Unable To Love

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I'm not depressed now.
I think that I'm unable to love. You know, love is too advanced feelings level to me. My mind and my feelings are disconnected, so when I feel, I know only that I feel something and it's positive or negative... but what exactly it is? I have to think about known feelings and choose one.
As I said, love is advanced feeling and it requires second person and his feelings too. Hardcore thing.

So I think if "cold" people, whose minds are away from emotions, like me, are able to love. Are any "cold hearts" here? What about you?

I'm able to make a sexual relationship when comes my hypersexual time (I'm extremist - I'm sexmachine or almost asexual). Now my sine wave is low, so I don't need anyone, I feel normal and can think about many things. I made some sexual relationships, but I didn't loved any of those guys. I don't miss anyone, though someone misses me.

I think if one day I would be able to really love somebody, because of love, not because only hormones boiling in me (I hate it btw, it turns my mind partially off, bleh).
Now I don't need anyone, my thoughts are only theory. I prefer to think about these things now, before my sine wave is high.

Nothing wrong with that as far I can tell. Love isn't something you find, it is something that happens. You will likely fall in love slowly over a period of time once you connect with someone and get a chance to grow with them. I think I am like that. It sneaks up on you. Even if it doesn't happen, there are plenty of other things to be done that are just as satisfying.

My feelings that I associate with "love"/"affection" aren't any different than the feelings I get from watching a favorite TV show, or the affection I feel for my toys (especially the stuffed ones).

So I dunno...