..... Yes. I was happy loving them when I was in the same state as her, and I was happy loving her when I had to move to Pennsylvania. I, however, was not happy loving her when she proclaimed her love for someone she only knew online, on youtube. I felt intrinsically betrayed then, because she knew I loved her. She knew it, and she even tried to love me back, she claimed. But she just couldn't. This happened last year, months January-June.
Technically, I've never had my first kiss or been in a romantic relationship. But I am going to live my life, and continue trudging on towards my goal of happiness in life. If I encounter someone romantically along the way, then that's what will happen. If my heart gets broken, so be it. I will never give up on happiness.