I feel misery with strong attachment to my ex girlfriend.

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I miss my ex girlfriend.
I just need her back man.
She was my social life.
She was everything.

I am crying right now.
I can't even go to bed at decent hours any more because I feel as though the days owe me something, and if I feel unsafe, I can't sleep. I rarely even went to bed at decent hours when I was in the relationship either - usually at 4, 5 or 6am due to different time zones.
I'm so god damn miserable.
I have a habit of bringing up emotions to such a painful extent it feels as though the break up is fresh. I was with my ex girlfriend for two years over a long distance relationship.
Now I'm having these bad mood swings, awful depressed states, ocd sucks and the general way I am affected emotionally is hurting me so much I just feel like I can't do a damn thing.
I need mental help.

Maybe this post should be moved to the haven.

Yeah, possibly. Are you getting professional help? It sounds like you need a hand.

Yeah I have a councillor for depression, which I get sometimes.
I am being referred to a psychiatrist for cognitive behavioral therapy for my ocd.
I have been here before. Every time a relationship ends, it's REALLY painful. Of course that's just obvious. It's affecting my life too much though.
I will have a councillor and a psychiatrist soon then.
It seems pretty much all I have is guitar and a supporting family, and some valuable online friends.
I don't like England - I never have. I was with my ex girlfriend who lived in America, and I loved it in Denver.
I only saw her for effectively about 6 weeks over 2 years, but that was easier than this right now.
I play some open mic gigs from time to time but man I need to become a world class musician who does this stuff all the time.
I have now re scheduled for taking driving lessons again, and I'm going to re take Tae Kwon Do (for a third time )
I must learn how to cook and maybe manage finances and stuff too.

Can you try immersing yourself in learning finances to try to distract yourself? Maybe that sounds like a ridiculous question... I wish you were happier. Tae Kwon Do sounds like a great outlet for some of your feelings.

It's so hard.
She was my life.
My life was these three things - her, my friend Christopher Hintze, and music.
I feel lonely and so empty.
I need a good hug.
I'm so miserable and depressed.
I'm weeping so badly now.
I talked to her, but nothing ever gets sorted.
I miss her and her family, but none of them care enough.
I miss Denver.

I miss it all.
I feel dead inside.

It's too much.
Now I need her.

I need a girlfriend, but if I get a slight chance, and that is very very infrequently, I shy away, because what I really need is her.

I can't do this on my own.

I have barely any support these days.

Something has to change.

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Thank you very much Jookia. You too man. I say the same to you.
*Hug*

Thank you happymusic.
Perhaps I could. There are a few things perhaps I could try to do.
On Wednesday I might be doing Tae Kwon Do again.

I feel better today. Thank you everyone. *Hug*

You'll get through. Just stay busy, and I wish you the best of luck.

When you're stuck on an exgirlfriend is the LAST time that you need a new one to deal with.

But I feel you bro, I have 2 exes that are like my best friends in the world, and it's a trial at times to figure out what exactly that means.

I was out with a new girl a couple nights ago and I made the semi-conscious decision to talk her ear off about both of them (more in the context of the nature of our friends, but still...) just to make sure if something does happen with this chick it's not going to f**k up what I already have.

Sorry for the double post but I think Blake Schwarzenbach put it best:

I couldn't wait to breathe your breath
I cut in line, I bled to death
I got to you, there was nothing left

Is it actually a serious 100% legit site? I read it more as a piss take, but some people take this kind of stuff dead seriously.