Do I have to go linear again? *sigh* Bitter reality. Ok, here goes. I've got an amazing place in the wilds of Manitoba that's just crying to be used. It's been my lifelong dream to set things up here and make a creative workspace for whoever would like to come by, colaborate, work, and just live. Much of this will sound familiar or you wouldn't be here right? Here's the situation... I am no longer able to work due to health reasons and have always had severe troubles finding decent employment anyways. Sound familiar? There is no way I'm going to subsist on a $10 an hour job at this point in my life. This is my only option, making this place work, finding people, or at least one person to share it with. I'm very creative but it's very hard to get anything done when you're completely alone and desperately lonely. No energy, no drive, no spark. Who am I looking for? Well, that one in a thousand. I'm looking for the trapped, the lonely, those who feel they have no purpose or future. There is something out there and we can find it together.
Although I'm 40 I look anywhere from 25-30 or so. This has always been a problem of course as well, who the hell listens to a kid? Well the laugh is on them. I'll still look 40 when all of "them" look like senior citizens. Ha! Ah the lost time. I was such a cute young thing and my pals online just can't believe I never had a girlfriend as a young-un. Here's me at 18 or so -->
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Hardly changed a bit!
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Ok, the personal stuff since that's what this thread is about. I've not enough experience to even know if I'm slightly bi or not. Sometimes I'll run into a guy who I feel a click for, most so-called "hot" looking gals leave me cold because what's behind the eyes is usually diddly-squat. It's a hard row to hoe as you know. Everyone assumes you're up on these things and can't understand why not. Must be something wrong, weird, untrustworthy, psycho, etc etc. *sigh* Most of my friends under 20 have more experience than I do. All I want is a chance to learn.
"Unexpected travel suggestions are dancing lessons from God"
- Kurt Vonnegut - "Cat's Crade"
Atomicat
03 Sep 2006, 8:27 pm
