.... today was my birthday, but I don't really care

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I turned 27 today.... Honestly, my feelings are that it could be a good thing because it's one year closer to dying and being liberated from the immortal pain life has dealt me, but it could be a bad thing because time is closing out and I might have to go through my life alone, or by the time I do find someone it might be too late and I won't care anymore.
Honestly, my entire problem with Asperger lifestyle is involuntary celibacy, and the way I feel about it, it's ok to admit this is a problem. Lots of people who are involuntarily celibate are coming forward now, some of them are even NTs. It IS a biological need, this is a proven fact. Though because society scoffs at such claims as the religious right has conditioned society to be ashamed of our sexuality. But (not saying this justifies it, but it helps make my point) why do you think vatican priests who are sublimated into vows of celibacy end up molesting children? Or why animals turn on their owners after years of loyalty? Yeah, some people choose to be celibate, usually because they are desensitized, but this is not a healthy path and most of these people are often quite bitter. Involuntary celibacy and poverty are the 2 major contributors to violent crimes accross the world.
Usually females and most NTs never understand this because they don't have to face it... Well, some females do if theyr low functioning. But ultimately this is a male/disability issue, and one that seriously needs to stop being ignored or taken lightly. Often predators are just people who had no outlet and went off the deep end, they are so desperate for some kind of meaningful human bonding experience and to have their sexual needs met, that they do things out of flight or fight response that are quite horrendous... Involuntary celibacy and poverty are the main 2 weapons the illuminati uses to breed hostility... This is also why islamic suicide bombers are promised something like 13 virgins in their afterlife, metaphorically speaking it's like riding the donkey and holding the carrot out in front of him on a stick to make him move.

I mean, those on here who really are male aspies know where I'm coming from, rather or not you'll admit to it.... Current psychological intimidation programming has taught us to deny it out of fear of ridicule, which would further put the individual back...

Do I want somewhere to park Little Werbert? Yes.
Do I want a companion for life? Not really.

snake321 you've really hit the nail on the head. You've taken the thoughts right out of my head.

You're right, snake321, but I don't want you to be sorry on your birthday, even if life has been crap for you most of the time. So has mine, and you have my full sympathy.

Ja, må han leva, ja må han leva,
ja, må han leva uti hundrade år!
Javisst skall han leva, javisst skall han leva,
javisst skall han leva uti hundrade år!

Snake, it probably doesn't help, but I felt and thought pretty much as you do at your age (I'm 46 now). I remember thinking at the time, that if I was diagnosed with a terminal illness, I'd not want to die as a virgin, so I promised myself that if I was ever diagnosed with a terminally ill, I would pay for sex just to have the experience before I was dead. Before anyone responds with the obvious point that we all suffer from a terminal illness, I meant a sentence of say 3 months to live.

Since that time, I've had some sexual experience, though only the physical act devoid of love. I would have to say that the sex drive does diminish somewhat by the 40's, though this isn't any help to you right now.

Although I struggle with being empathetic, I do understand your anger and pain on this subject. Masturbation is a very poor substitute.

I would. The fact that you're getting older means you're learning more in the process.

Happy birthday!

Birthdays suck. All you did was not die. As for the involuntary celebacy, that's just the way things go. You have to change that one for yourself. Easiest way to do that is to go around and find loose women, then have sex with them. It's all a matter of avoiding anything that will set off autism for a day or two, then just screw her and leave. I wouldn't go down that road due to the obvious STD risks and the fact that I'd like a life companion more than a sex doll, but if you're that desparate, there are ways. My second suggestion is drugs. Drugs and alcohol can easily solve all of lifes problems if you throw your moral compass off the side of the ship.

I meant to say, happy birthday anyway!

Happy Birthday. Now stop your crying. Wait till your living alone (no girlfriend, etc) at age 45 like me. Then you can cry.
At 27 you have lots of time to find someone. So don't give up.

Absolutely!

Thanx for the happy birthdays, I'm having a mint chocolate chip icecream cake

You're welcome!

I hope you're enjoying your birthday!

Happy Birthday Snake321. I wish you all the very best!
Sometimes it feels like something special should happen on your birthday, then theres an ordinary, boring grey day , and wow, suddenly something happens to make you feel fantastic.
Hope that day comes for you soon
love Marshmallow

I hate birthdays, all that pressure and attention focused on ME, I can't stand it. I wish it could just pass like any other day.