hyperlexian wrote:
b9 wrote:
i do not have a soul. i have a consciousness, but that is as far as it goes.
"soul" is a flavor of personality i was told, but my personality is sterile and has no flavor.
i am content to live every day inside my consciousness, and the fact that i do not attract like minded people is "par for the course" in my life. i love tammy but she has no idea what goes on inside my mind, and no one ever will.
all the gooey emotions i see that stick to other people just roll off my back like water sprayed on a duck.
i waddle around in my own pond.
i respect your perspective a great deal.
i appreciate that.
my perspective is purely first person perspective, and unfortunately i can not see things any other way.
all i can see externally is what surrounds me at close range, and even then i can not see the motives behind anything said to me that i did not think myself.
i do know and feel that you have love for people like me who can not return your love in equal kind.
i kind of feel i am short changing you by being the way i am.
i am going to bed now because that is where my isolated mind wishes to be, but your words will make me sleep more comfortably. one day, if i get better, i may repay your concern for me manifold, but for now, just know your words will soften my sleep tonight.