I hate myself

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I just feel wretched. I try to form bonds, and try to find a good woman, but always the same. I put my foot in my mouth, or I find out they're seeing someone else, or "not dating right now." I just feel so inadequate. I feel ugly. This physical body I occupy feels like a burden given by a gruel and toying god. Who could possibly want it or me? I just get the feeling that they (they being women) feel nothing more that pity for me, as though I were the Phantom of the Opera. God d*#n I hate that! Like I'm some pathetic child who doesn't know better. Sometimes, I feel like I could do just about anything for SOMEONE to love me...

Don't be so hard on yourself man. It's not you. You deserve better than the last girl you've asked out. Believe and She will come. Put a possitive frame of mind and do what you love doing. It's the only way to feel better about yourself in this kind of situation. I might have to remind myself that tomarrow, I'm going to ask a girl out tomarrow and I don't think that she cares about me the way I do for her. Possibly as a friend but not a lover.

Anyway, Cheer up. Things could be worse.

_Eric

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Thank You and have a nice day,

_Eric

I know how you feel. The opposite sex seems to hate me...And I'm straight so I can't go for girls.

This is probably the most traumatic thing about being ASpic. I remember University, and how I just COULDN'T catch onto the 'messages' that were being sent. It was a very difficult time. Even when I got into a relationship, she was an abusive alcoholic. Yuck-o. What made me mad was NT male friends who insisted on acting competitive, instead of helping me out. I'd ask for help, and they'd say hell no, keep making mistakes, I get laid, why can't you? Very tough. Finally met a decent woman, and got married. Been married 16 years. There is hope.