I hate being alone????

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I'm 19, female with mild AS, and I am still a virgin. I have made out with nine guys my whole life on nights out or at discos, and it has only gone as far as caressing each other "down there" with the last few guys because of being drunk.

But tbh, I hate it. I hate how they would grab anything on you, say dirty stuff to you, and how they always want to do dirty stuff like w**nking, and then afterwards they would completely ignore you. I hate it because I have no attratction towards these guys at all, physical r emotional.

I dunno but I watched too much television when I was younger, so I think thats why I have such high standards. I just want a guy that i like to see me and....thats it. Just to see me, and want to get to know me, and have them feel like I am the greatest thing to ever happen to them. Whether its emotion or physical or both, I just want to feel wanted by someone.

I know that is OTT, but I can't help it. I get so jealous when I see these couples together at school and also when I see then conversing with each other on my news feed on facebook and seeing pictures of them together cuddling and stuff.

Movie romance makes it worse. Like in "Prince Caspain" the way Caspian looked at Susan, espially in their last scene where she was dressed up so beautifully.....that's what I want a guy to do to me, to have that longing for me when I walk into the room. Not to be disgusted that the "weirdo" girl has walked inot the room.

The physical part is the worst. I constantly think of sex and I cant help it, and pleasure myself to video on the internet but i feel so dirty and disgusted afterwards. A part of me is considering signing up to one of those sites that offer casual sex between strangers thats how lonely i feel.

I am not going to ask for help (problem is me being too quiet, too weird, blah, blah) but I just want to know if anyone knows how I feel.

Yeah, that's not likely to give you very meaningful connections.

try OkCupid.

Try hanging out with the geeks.

Yeah I know how you feel, I hate the whole nightclub scene and here in England it seems to be the only way to meet other people.

It's horrible. And starting relationships in work or education can go pretty badly.

You never really meet nice people in nightclubs, sometimes you find a few okay extroverts. There doesn't seem to be much real romance anyway. Most relationships seem fraught with dissension and disappointment.

I'm pretty much in a similar position to you - getting annoyed at couples for holding hands, kissing, etc. while not being in a relationship yourself. I've made a resolve not to seek out a relationship, but it's tough!

If you look for love in a bar or a night club, you will find a drunk who is just trying to use you for gratification. Try looking in better places:

- Volunteer, you will meet other volunteers there.
- Join a club--not a night club, but a club for something you are interested in like a sewing club, chess club, etc.
- Take up a hobby. You can connect with others who share your interest.
- Get involved with community functions, like town meetings, fairs, theater groups, library events, etc.

In order to meet a number of local people to be possible future dates, you have to go out there to where they are. Also, this will give you a chance to get to know them as platonic friends first, which will give you a chance to decide if you want to pursue any of the relationships to a deeper level. So, happy hunting!

If you feel bad about being a virgin at 19, how would you feel being a virgin at 49?! Yeah, that's me.

Your standards do not seem high; they seem very reasonable. Stay away from drunk guys and try to connect with people in more positive circumstances. Make sure the guy cares about you before you let him put his hands on you if that is what you want.

Don't know why you feel dirty and disgusted. If it's the masturbation, you're just going to have to change your attitude towards it. Think about it and you'll realize that it causes no harm. If it's the videos you are watching...well, it depends on what kind of videos they are. If you are watching something sick and wrong, stop watching it. If there isn't anything wrong with them, it's another attitude adjustment issue.

Psh, I have high standards if ANYONE. I want to wait til marriage to have sex, and I want a mormon guy.

I don't think your expectations are high, there's nothing exaggerated about wanting a meaningful relationship. I think you need be more patient and understanding towards yourself in this aspect. These guys ignore you because they know they can have the milk without buying the cow, they have no emotional commitment towards you.

As a poster stated above, find someone that is willing to develop an emotional connection towards you and wants to establish a relationship with mutual understanding and respect before you become intimate.

Switch "Mormon guy" with "Christian woman" and that's where my standards lie. I don't really consider it that high, though Learn something new everyday, I guess

I couldn't seeing myself marrying someone that classifies themselves under any religion or label. You are narrowing out a lot of people that might potentially make good partners, I find it to be extremist and rigid to be honest.

What if you had a child that questioned your beliefs? Would you pigeon hole them and push them into your beliefs or let them develop their own sense of identity? I understand the desire to have similar beliefs and perspectives on morality but still I don't understand the need to pigeon hole yourself.

"Standards" isn't the right word to describe it. It's more "preferences", if anything. Meaning, I'd prefer a Christian woman for a partner, but it would take more than not fulfilling that point alone to narrow my dating pool. I also know that even if I do find someone that fits that preference, there could still be dealbreakers with the rest. I realize it's not as black-and-white as I came across!

Also, I wouldn't mind if I had a child that questioned my beliefs. In fact, I'd welcome that and let the child find out what s/he believes in! Correct me if I'm wrong, but its usually childhood where humans are at their most creative point, so putting my beliefs onto my child without giving him/her the chance to ponder on it would stifle that creativity.

I can be a moron guy or a bourbon guy. =P

If your OK with meeting someone online & doing the internet thing for a bit; there's plenty of guys here on WP who can relate to you except some haven't even made out with women. I can think of couple good 1s off the top of my head who would probably be interested