SpaceCase wrote:
I do.
I have fallen in love with someone who was totally rude,immature,and cruel.She loved me back,but she has severe borderline personality disorder and she's pregnant now.
I've also been interested in someone who USED to hate me...but doesn't really care for me now.
-SpaceCase
Have you ever thought about spending a year or so without some kind of romantic involvement? I think this would be good for you. Really, I'm not trying to flame. You just sound really vulnerable, confused, and in search of an identity.