I felt the same way. I eventually found her. It was very special for me. Now she's gone and may never be back. I'll always remember it.
Just remember, if you're looking for perfection, you probably won't find it. If you find the right person, even their flaws will seem to make them better. So uh, keep on keeping on!
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Since everyone else has this on their signatures.. might as well conform:
Your Aspie score: 121 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 107 of 200 You seem to have both Aspie and neurotypical traits